Day 1 of freedom...
I woke up late today but still managed to get myself to church. Enjoyed church very much today, especially the sermon. Really spoke to me. It reminded me that I've got things that needs changing. Quite a few things actually. Hmm....
After church, had a spontaneous and random karaoke session with Grace. We really sang our lungs out. Thankfully, my lungs aren't damaged yet. Haha...joking joking. Not that severe. But we did sing to release stress and also to fill time and dispell boredom of course. Nothing much at night though. Just stayed at home and finish watching Moonlight Resonance. Truly nice and heart warming =) So so touching!! Unfortunately, the series is over =( But it was a good show. Worth watching.
Hmm.... I need to find things to do tomorrow after meeting or else I'm going to bore myself to death. I just can't sit still at home if I'm not having exams. Seriously. I get agitated and frustrated. So, I need to find things to do. Can't afford to rot at home.
Well, it's 2.30am now and I'm not sleeping yet again. I'm going to be a zombie soon although it's past exam period. Don't know why I'm like that, so don't ask =p
Oh well...meeting once again...
This marks the end of the finals of Year 2 Semester 1. YES!! At last....freedom....for 2 weeks. Pfft!! Better than nothing...I'll take it. Hehe...
You'd think that the finals would have what I call a "smooth" finish or ending. But no.... it crash landed. The last paper was superbly, awesomely, incredibly and magnificently....idiotic, stupid, rubbish, miserable, mind and mood breaking. I do not wish to see that subject again. EVER. So, I hope that I get a reasonably decent grade for it although I know I wrote trash and junk in there which I don't know is usable or not. We'll wait and see when the results come out.
Don't want to think about exam subjects anymore. Throughout study week and my exam period, my best friend called "headache" paid me visits every single day. How thoughtful and faithful. I've been taking panadols almost every other day. I finished like 1 strip in 1 week. What's wrong...?!?! Hopefully, it will go away now that the studying, late nights and exam streak is over. So, my theory to this is: "studies causes deterioration of health and state of mentality"
Situation: Not only has exams given me headaches, it caused me to GAIN WEIGHT!!
Explanation: Studying uses up brain juice and burns brains. Thus, it would lead to the deficiency of energy to stimulate the brain to store up more information and to make logic out of things studied. This in turn causes human/subject/victim to consume food of larger portions and at more frequent intervals.
Conclusion: Studies are like parasites. They get the best out of you and you as the "host" suffer damages.
Treatment: Diet plan and exercise
After exam....
I had a vision in my mind that I would be resting at home, watching a movie on my laptop maybe and not moving at all. Instead, I was out shopping with family for bro's blazer. Amazingly, I barely felt tired although I hardly slept last night and the night before. And now, I can spend time blogging and transfering movies and dramas. Nice right? Haha.... But I'm feeling the after-effect now. Serious case of tiredness. I was so tired yesterday while studying that I couldn't open my eyes like normal. It was as though I cried the whole night, went to sleep and woke up with swollen eyes kind of can not open. Application of Eyemore did not work either. On top of that, I still don't feel like sleeping now although I'm tired! Hahahaha.....
Hmm.... Life's a little boring now. It always revolves around the same things. And so, I'm planning to fully utilize my 2 weeks of break. Since I just got to know yesterday that I won't have to go for meetings and get too busy with my work, I have more time to do other things other than work of course. Time to be random and spontaneous... Find things, go places, experience things to fill time =)
Tomorrow will be my 2nd last paper, which is Microbiology. Last paper would be on Saturday, Endocrinology. Seriously speaking, I've been studying until I feel like banging my head on the wall, jump out of building, crying....etc.
我真的读都有哭也有死。
Meaning: I really study until I wanna cry and also wanna die.
Yeah...I'm trying to learn up my Mandarin/Chinese (I read in Cantonese also, not only Mandarin..hehe)
Anyways, in a way, I'm glad that finals is coming to an end. BUT.... I'm absolutely horrified about tomorrow. How do I put in 9 chapters of information into my head in 1 day?? Near impossible.... Tomorrow will be the no sleep day. The first no sleep day that I will have during finals throughout my Uni period...till now that is.
Note: I might make headlines by getting into a car accident due to insufficient sleep.
Actually, truthfully, study week wasn't fruitful for me. I got addicted to watching 家好月圆 (Moonlight Resonance). IF you have the time, please watch it. Teaches us young minds the meaning of family ties, bonds and relationship. Till the time when exams started, I'm still caught up in following the episodes. Mom's fault...got me addicted to it. Terrible... =p
Since I'm blogging to "release" my stress, I wanna say that TNB subcontractors are IDIOTS!! Middle of the night fix street light until scratch my car. A nice deep scratch. Really wanna sue them... damage my car, ruin my mood to study, might lead to me failing, destroy my future. See how bad it can be??!! Okay... I'm exaggerating. But my poor car... sigh....
I kind of look forward to holidays now. KIND OF. I've got SRC work to catch up on, my own work to do, get ready for industrial training, holiday. You sort it out on your own which ones I look forward to and which ones I don't. I've only got 2 weeks to settle them all. I initially thought I had 3 weeks. Apparently not. It'll be another week of cramming in activities and work to do. Pfft!! Yeah...this is MY HOLIDAY.
And so, this little lady has to get back to her studying, brain burning activities again.
Adrenaline pump up, have to Gambate, perlu terus berusaha dan belajar, 又有加油了....err, don't know how to say in Tamil.
The exam week streak continues. Actually its only been 3 days after my 1st paper. I'm still in no mood for finals.... =( Definitely not a good sign....possibility of failing is superbly high now.
Despite all my rantings, I did manage to finish up 3 chapters of Clinical Biochemistry. I'm seriously dense now but I hope it remains there till Saturday where I will just vomit out whatever information I'm keeping. (FYI: not literally vomitting out) Those who read as much as I do, you'll get what I mean.
Although I was concentrating and studying the whole day today, my thoughts are still flying off somewhere else. I keep pausing and trying to get back on track...FOCUS!! But they still wander off somehow after a period of time. Guilt fills me....trust me. Trying my best and yet what I'm doing is not my best and I know it. Level of disappointment is rising again....
I'm actually missing that one particular moment and time, which is not suppose to happen.
Can't wait till finals are over and get busy with SRC work once again and industrial training. Need to get my mind off things. Yeah....if you've noticed or known me for quite a while, you'll notice that I like to be a workaholic when I have things on my mind. Just a bad habit... a very bad and unhealthy habit.
Who has a way of brain washing me into studying??
A new Samsung P2, full touch screen mp4 player that plays music and videos of course. You can view photos in them also. And... I can make calls through this little gadget of mine by connecting it to my phone through bluetooth. Hehe!! Probably has more functions, I just haven't found out yet. Well, its finals period and studies first. So it's still in the case, untouched and brand new still, awaiting me to keep it company when I'm done with finals. Hahaha!!!
Yes...you can see how sleek and shiny it is that you can see the reflection of my phone. Hehe! (it's not on by the way if you're wondering) And so...this is my other baby (apart from my keyboard). Have to get PROTECTION for my baby soon.
Okay...back to studying already. But first.....sleep. We'll talk study tomorrow =p
This is the middle of the study week. Study/revision progress is....still a blunder. But nevertheless, still making the effort and going the extra mile...sort of.
I actually wanted to moan here about how sad and how pityful I am doing my revision. Then, I changed my mind =P
Although I've got things to moan about, but I've decided to spare my blog from them...for the moment. So yeah...this was just another meaningless post to waste your time =)
With all the tests and quizes out of the way, preparation for finals is finally here. The test today was horrible...horrigible I tell you. Don't know how else to explain it already.
So, everyone is prepping up for the finals. Crucial moment. All the last minute work, studying and revision. This is when the pressure really builds up. Plus, my finals timetable this time is totally screwed. So I'm being prepared to go crazy in the last moments.
After the test today, I'm pretty much relaxed. I HAVE to relax or not I'll just go bonkers. Am already lack of sleep. Mental retardation on the way. I somehow feel like I'm getting stupider by the day. Everything that I read, seems like some greek to me. Either that or I'm just really tired to be able to absorb anymore of those stuff.
And all of a sudden, mom hit me with a question. I'm not going to reveal what was the question, but, it got me to open my eyes big and wide eventhough I'm feeling so lethargic and tired now. Currently, I'm still unable to answer. Still weighing the situation with no luck of going anywhere.
