heaven knows

now...i know the truth. and it's not what i've always thought it was. in somehow some way, i'm left speechless. so...i'll only keep the memories and nothing else.
everyone's happy now...

am about to turn my biological clock around. all for the sake of what?....exams. darn it. well, i'm suppose to be studying now but got a bit tired of it. can't help it.....it's dead boring..this subject that i'm reading that is. just few more weeks to go...

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if it can be measured, it'll be in the negatives....

When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of mine
I look at you, lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
I'm gonna love you boy you are so fine
Angel of Mine
How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow
You came into my life sent from above
When I lost all hope you showed me love
I'm checkin' for ya boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine
Nothing means more to me than what we share
No one in this whole world can ever compare
Last night the way you moved is still on my mind
Angel of Mine
What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show
You came into my life sent from above
When I lost all hope, you showed me love
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine
I never knew I could feel each moment
As if it were new,
Every breath that I take,the love that we make
I only share it with you
When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of Mine
You came into my life sent from above
When I lost all hope you showed me love
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine
How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow
I look at you lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine

although it's an old song...but it's just nice

due to the fact that the owner of this blog is having some sort of difficulties at the moment, blogging won't be as frequent as usual.

hah!! i've got a lab test at 1pm later and i'm still able to blog.
the lab test....isn't quite a lab test. but it consists of the students reading the damn lab manual and sitting for the PAPER WRITTEN test, not practical test. how "interesting" can it get huh?

the walls are coming down....
move away people!!!...
let me stand under it...

am currently addicted to few songs...

Shannon Noll - Lift
...close the book and start again
coz i knw how hard it can get
but you gotta lift, you gotta lift
and sometimes, that's how it is
but i knw you're stronger, stronger than this,
you gotta lift....

Shayne Ward - You're not alone
...if you only let the sun shine on you
i promise you, you're not alone
when the lights go out at nite
when you're feeling lost inside
you're not alone, you're not alone
when your world is falling down
i will be the one around
you're not alone, you're not alone...

Backstreet Boys - Lose it all
...and if i lose it all
there'll be nothing left to lose and i would take the fall
coz knowing you are out there breathing
it's so wonderful, it's a chance i take even if i break it
i lose it all, if i lose it all
wouldn't matter anyway...

Elliot Yamin - Wait for you
...so baby i will wait for you
coz i dunno wat else i can do
don't tell me i ran out of time
if it takes the rest of my life
baby i will wait for you
if you think i'm fine it just ain't true
i really need you in my life
no matter wat i have to do
i'll wait for you...

one word to sum it all up...


DEPRESSED..........

well...let me do a round up for this week before i dive into my books.

had my PR presentation on tuesday. it was HORRIBLE! and not to mention...screwed up. thanks to one idiot who wasn't even from the PR class...he managed to make my group look like idiots. one wtf situation. the lecturer was highly DISsatisfied with my group's presentation and we got a "call back" for week 14....the whole group's going to get all sorts of comments from her then.
moving on...on the same day itself, my favourite heels' strap broke due to the slippery conditions in the evening and i had to walk barefoot all the way to my car. another wtf situation. and while i was walking to the car, a car drove past a puddle of water and splashed the water at me...there goes my skirt and shirt. yet another wtf situation.
in conclusion, tuesday was a wtf day coz every damn thing went wrong.

on thursday was comp test day. studied like mad during the breaks that i had. and with one look at the paper....SHIT! gone case....crapped in the whole paper.

now...no choice but to study AGAIN coz there's biochem test next week and i'll seriously fail if i don't study...which wouldn't be a pretty sight then coz i'll go bonkers.
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my mouse aka tikus is showing signs of cacatness....hmm......
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and to finish this off.......it's time for me to study already.
thus, no more crapping here...
signing out-

comps systems & applications test is over! and i screwed it up once again. when i first got the paper, looked at 1st few questions of the fill in the blanks, first thought that came into my head....WTF!(only happens in the mind) what kind of question is this? read so much...altho last minute...BUT STILL i read a lot...all end up....WORTHLESS.

*note to self: reading for comp test is totally useless*

god knows what results i'll get...but confirm...it won't be good. another test coming soon....structural biochem test and cell bio lab test...in the same freaking week.seriously have to start studying or else i'll fail...sigh. time to ask myself...what happen to all the determination that i have before? and the only answer i can think of is.....it's gone with the wind. really gone...



swt....swt....swt!!!...

beautiful song...
meaning full lyrics...

Shannon Noll - Lonely
sitting in a hotel miles from nowhere
thought that this would be my happiness
i look at the phone and pick it up
for the millionth time i put it down again

i know i let you go
and i got no right to know

do you ever get lonely baby
don't you ever get tired of living that way
don't you ever wonder whether there's a better life out there
do you ever think about wat we had
and how you'd give anything to get it back
do you think you'll never love that way again
wondering if only
do you ever get lonely

i look around the room and wonder
when it was and how my life has changed
i'm surrounded by a million so called friends
and i don't even know their names

when all of your love is gone
and you feel like don't belong
oh tell me

do you ever get lonely baby
don't you ever get tired of living that way
don't you ever wonder whether there's a better life out there
do you ever think about wat we had
and how you'd give anything to get it back
do you think you'll never love that way again
wondering if only
do you ever get lonely

i know that this world has changed us
now we're nothing more than strangers
but do you think about me ever
do you think we belong together

do you ever get lonely baby
don't you ever get tired of living that way
don't you ever wonder whether there's a better life out there
do you ever think about what we had
and how you'd give anything to get it back
do you ever think you'll never love that way again
do you ever miss me
wishing you could kiss me
if only you could hold me
do you ever get lonely
like me...

pondering.....
pondering.....
pondering.....

when will it.........?
need to get it out of my head....
need to get it all out....
but for some reason....

just take the leap off the edge....
and we'll see how hard i'm going to fall....

~put out all the lights and let the darkness fill~

well....it has been god knows how many donkey years since i've last blogged. will try to be more consistent in the future......doubt so.

anyways....
life in uni now is pretty messed up. especially the group assignment. am about to.....BOOM!! however.......the final presentation is tomorrow. thank god!!! people will die in my hands if the presentation was any later. feel rather bad....but then again, it got the work going and all. so....i don't really care much now...just wanna get it over wit.

stress....
there's tests coming up and 1 of them is comp test...AGAIN!!!....this thurs. definitely burning midnite oil on wed nite. confirm! and then there's structural biochem test next thurs...am so going to fail that no matter how much i study. but nevertheless...have to sort of make an effort.

about other stuff....
have not been in a good mood lately. a lot of junk going through this thin or thick(i wouldn't know) skull of mine. and the junk is really refering to a whole lot of junk. seriously. just have to settle some stuff and get it over with soon....
and another news.....the twin a.k.a. py, is coming back on the 25th. now is the right time to sing : "joy to the world...all the boys and girls...joy to fishes in the deep blue sea...joy to you and me" finally...we have the "come let's go out in 5mins time" scenarios again.

*p.s.: babe...i know you're reading. don deny it. and don deny tat you miss me loads as well. i know it and you know it. yes!!

-and now....it's time to shower. just got back from the freaking far place where i call uni-