heaven knows

Some stupid thing has infested my laptop. It keeps popping up stupid stuff saying that it's been infected with virus and all the crap. But when I scan it with my McAfee, there's no virus. What the crap...

Now, let me officially introduce my oh so cool phone...

*pls: logically speaking, this pic can't be taken by my phone.
I have no idea why that everytime someone looks at this phone, and when the person looks back at me, the fella will think that my phone is an AP set. So let me make this clear. Thou does not support neither will I buy AP phones.

On an entirely different note... I have every intention to bite "someone's" head off. Is it that hard to understand simple english and just do it?? I don't think I ever gibberish before and neither do I speek greek. So till now, I don't know what is the problem. *refraining myself from cursing*

Although I really really like the song "shattered", but this time, I'm not going to break and shatter.

And here's a song dedicated to "that"....
Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I’m seein myself so differently
I didn’t wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought id say
I’m fine
Without you

Today is either a rather happy day or it is a rather sad day.

Remember the phone that I was supposed to buy to replace my current phone?? I went around scouting the price. It was all less than RM 1000. So I thought it was a pretty good bargain already for a reasonably good phone with good specifications. Finally, I got an offer of less than RM900...even better. After CONFIRMING that I would definitely get that phone after Christmas, IT just had to happen.

This was the IT incident...
After having dinner with my family on Christmas day, we walked around Summit and just looked at other handphones for fun. Then, I told my dad that I initially wanted a different model, a better model of course...Yeah, that model was the Nokia 6210 Navigator. Main intention to have that phone is for its navigation purposes, which is suitable for a person who always gets herself lost...like ME!

And there I was telling my dad that although I like that phone, it was way out of my league cause it would mean that I have to fork out additional RM 350. Super SIAO!! That would make me SUPER DUPER POOR on top of my existing poor condition now. So I didn't really thought much about it.

The next morning (this morning la), my mom called me to ask if I'm going down to KL to get my phone. And she added the extra question to "rub" it in, "so which phone are you buying now?" Sigh... sad case early in the morning. But of course I answered with honesty and also pityful-ness that I would be like super poor if I bought that phone.

Then my mom continued on saying that if the other phone is better than it's up to me. When I got to the shop in KL with my dad, we asked for the Supernova phone 1st. And then my dad asked about the Navigator phone. *cries*

And now, finally... long story cut short. I got the 6210 Navigator and is officially SUPER DUPER POOR now.

Got the phone which is super cool...to me at least = happy
Used extra money which wasn't intended to = misery

Of course... I didn't sell off or trade-in my W810i. My faithful W810i is still with me. No heart to sell off my faithful phone.

I look at my next semester's timetable and I feel sad and depressed already. They meant to torture us for the whole 3 years...confirm!



Can you imagine having a day that has only 1 class. BUT....the class starts from 4pm to 6pm. Isn't it FANTASTIC?! Nothing can compare to Malaysian education system's timetables. Really one of a kind that was meant to drill us and squeeze us dry.



Now, I'm contemplating. To buy or not to buy. Of course I've weighed the consequences of both actions. Still left undecided. But surprisingly, my dad went "research" about it already... like the price and specifications.



And the object that has yet been decided on is....

The Nokia 7610 Supernova.

Since my phone is a bit crazy already, I was thinking that maybe it's time to change my phone. It's crazy in a sense that it is super difficult to charge and I'm always on the verge of having a dead phone.

But "The Green Paper" or in our country, "The Blue Paper", is highly important and which I'm lacking of right now. Sigh... sponsors anyone??

Oo.. I forgot to mention another weird thing that happened yesterday (thursday).

I saw my Management Principle tutor near my church. Weird situation although we were both in our cars and driving. Imagine, my uni is like nowhere near my housing area or nearby. And that wasn't the 1st time I saw him in that area. I saw him once in Pyramid too. Super weird. Now I know why he knows so much about Subang and Sunway when he uses companies within these areas as examples in class.

And so, it's down to the last 24hours before all the work is done. Yeap yeap... After days and nights of hard work/labour, we're finally within that few hours of being free from work. Unfortunately, I'll get this feeling again in a few months time. Hopefully it won't feel as much as this time.

I have to label today as the Weird Day.

Weird incident No. 1
When I went for lunch with my mom in a coffee shop, I saw a guy. A guy that looks 90% like Robert Pattinson. OMG... The only difference is that his face was thinner with not so prominent jaw line.

*once again I'd like to emphasize that I do not have a fan crush or whatever crush on Robert Pattinson

If I could, I would take a picture and put a comparison here. But the guy was sitting right in front of me and facing me. So yeah, awkward to take a pic or to even stare for long.

Weird incident No. 2
While I was leaving my housing area to go to church, I saw from afar a person that looked like *censored*. I was thinking to myself that it can't possibly be. But as my car approaches the turning, the fella really looked like *censored*. So I really opened my eyes big and wide to look properly and I almost took too big a turn. But... it's not *censored* although the person really look a lot like *censored*. Oh well....

I feel like I'm about to fall sick. The "signs and symptoms" are slowly appearing one by one. I don't know what's the cause of it though. But it's definitely irritating cause I hate taking medicines or seeing a doctor. Plus it's near Christmas and I haven't done my Christmas shopping yet. Sigh...

Had lunch with Rachie today. Like finally... After being missing for so long.

Something weird happened today. It's really weird that it made me blur and speechless. It's so weird that... I'm not going to say what it is here. =p

Monkey limewire is having connection problems that I can't download my songs fast enough. Have to find some sort of alternative...

At 1st, I didn't know what "O.A.R." stands for. Now I know that it stands for "Of A Revolution". Pretty cool name. And their song shattered is nice. Yet another song that got me hooked to it. Good lyrics. I can't help but fall in love with songs that have good lyrics and even better when the band / singer have good skills.

"how many times can I break till I shatter,
over the line can't define what I'm after,
I always turn the car around
give me a break let me make my own pattern
all that it takes is some time but I'm shattered
I always turn the car around"

I'm finally back from Youth Camp.

It wasn't as bad as I expected. But the 1st day was horrible. It was because of the rain, and it got the place all muddy and dirty and it got us dirty and wet as well. This camp was like a mini boot-camp. We had the flying fox, kayaking, par course thingy and telematch. Really shows off my un-fitness level physically. Can't really relate it to age right?? But I think the age issue is part of it... And I almost thought that I would get pneumonia already because I bathe crazy cold water everyday. Especially on the 1st day when it was raining and cold.

I think that I'm truly blessed during the camp this time. The message got across very well. It revived me again amidst all the business.

But more importantly, this camp slowed things down for me to take some time to breathe and also to reflect back on a lot of things. Destress... Although I still have many things that needs a bit of rushing already, but I think it's still good.

I wonder why... Why does my mom bring up occassionally which guy is good, nice, etc. Sigh... I don't really get the sudden promotion of guys in front of my face. And my reaction to it was, "give up in loving guys already. now love God only~"

So for whoever that's reading this, you know better. Please don't promote guys to me... currently and in the near future not interested. Unless they come along naturally. Do I look as though I'm so in need of a guy? Although I'm clumsy, but I think I can still manage on my own.

Sigh... I'm so hooked. So hooked to these songs...
The Script - I'm Yours (thanks to my twin)
Iron & Wine - Flightless Bird, American Mouth
Jon McLaughlin - So close

Now.. It's time to "treat" my aching muscles and also my "presents" from Youth Camp. All the nice bruises that resemble 50cents and 20cents need attending to. And also the cut which is itching like mad...yeesh~

Yesterday was quite...an awesome day.

Went out with Ms Jessie aka Dodol. We went on a food hunt you see... all for the sake of Youth Camp. And while we were in Mydin, the stupidest thing happened...

As I drove into Mydin, due to the fact that I haven't been there before, I didn't know where the parking was. I thought it was like the Pyramid parking where they have upstairs and also basement. Since I turned in, I kept on my left...I don't know why...and I saw this ramp going up and I thought it was going to the parking lot anyways. After I got up there, it was the FREAKING WAREHOUSE. Sigh...stupidity of a different level.

After all our food shopping spree and buying stuff, we headed to Pyramid. Met Tim there for lunch and then Tim decided to try out the Fish Spa. 1 word explains it all... Ticklish. Jessie and I were practically screaming there because it was super ticklish everytime the fish sucks out of your feet.

And the conclusion for the Fish Spa is... the fishies are MORE attracted to feet which have dry skin.

Just like what Pei Ying said... Twilight was superb.

For those who don't understand "love" stuff, you won't find this movie interesting and nice.

But seriously. This movie has got my eyes hooked to the screen from the start to the very ending. If you don't know what this movie is about, go to http://www.twilightthemovie.com/

I'm quite tempted to watch it again. haha....

I have been MISSING from the internet world for quite a few days!!!

No, I'm not crazy...YET.

Thanks to church work, my own work (income purposes) and home work... My time is practically filled up from the moment I open my eyes to the minute I close them. Plus, I haven't looked at my SRC proposals yet. *toot*

So here's roughly what happened the past few days while I was "away".

Wednesday (26/11/08).... Busy day No.1
Went down to Sg Long for UTAR Ball meeting. Thanks to my smartness, I bought KFC mash potato to eat while sitting in for meeting. Or not, I'll be like Kelvin who starved till the time we reached Sri Kembangan.

After meeting, is eat/food/happy hour. We went steamboat-ing/BBQ-ing. Super heaty!! Almost sore-throat the next day. But it was nice and fun.
Burned pandan leaves thanks to our intensive BBQ-ing. And I learned some "tricks" from Tjun Kong also for BBQ-ing.

God is truly good =)

As the Song Writing/Composing Competition is nearing its closing date, I feel like time is running out. I've even thought of the possiblity of me writing the song myself using my own music background. Thanks to rustyness and my feelings towards theory... of course it seemed somewhat like a stupid idea. But I know something was needed to be done, thus, I resorted to myself... I actually started writing the lyrics already.

Trust me, it's not the lyrics that is difficult. It's the music. I was thinking over and over again how to do it. It's like contemplating whether to jump or not to jump from a building. But the situation was: Jump of course die. Don't jump also die. Meaning Die-Die situation.

But...But....BUT... I got a call this afternoon from a guy. And this guy told me he wanted to send in his entry for the competition. HALLELUJAH!!! So yeah...glimpse of hope.

Definitely thank God for it. Really answered my prayers in my time of need.
Teaches me more to have more faith in Him and do His work.

The feeling of having too many things in hand.... TIREDness

Now to think of it, December ain't going to look so good. I see more of my time being booked to do work. What the NONSENSE!!!

The only good news for today is that I got work again. So expecting to get money again. Temporary happiness again. Then long term sadness due to lack of sleep which leads to frustration which leads to bad tempers which MIGHT lead to viciousness. So yeah...

So which ever stupid monkey that tells me that I'm free, I'm going to kick the daylights out of that monkey. Be smart people...

Today I would say is pure madness.
Went back to campus to hand in some documents and then realized that I forgot to take my overdue books with me to return it. So I drove all the way back. Went out for lunch with mom and took her to the bank to settle some things and then drove back to uni. Technically speaking, I haven't been driving all day. But logically speaking, MOST of my time was spent driving. It's crazy having to get stuck in the same jam twice in the same day. Horrigible!!

Okayz... La La land calling me already. Way past my BEDTIME.

I've finally watched.....


Yes, Madagascar 2.


I would say it is better than the 1st one. Super funny. I don't want to give any spoilers to anyone who hasn't watched it yet. So, go watch it for yourself and see how funny and lame it can get. It got me hooked into the song... "I like to move it move it..."


Besides that, I'm waiting to watch Quarantine. Who has the guts to go watch it with me?? Since I've got quite a few friends who can't take this kind of movies. Haha...

Fuhh... after doing the Christmas cell deco for quite a while, it's still not done yet. More work to do on Sunday after service. Sad...

Although I've known for a very long time that Subang's jam is one of a kind, today was the worst I've been in so far. It was at a stand still. Even the alternative route was jammed up. It's beginning to be a serious problem...especially when it's raining.

Plus, jams gets the passengers and the driver going crazy. Like super crazy. Till they decided to change everyone's names into some lame names.

e.g. JOHNSTON >>>> Muthusamy
JOHNNY >>>> Dollah

Don't ask me the rationale behind the naming when it was deemed "suitable" by Ton ton. Ask Mr. John-ton to explain... right Johnston??

What was supposed to be a 20mins trip/journey became a 2hour journey. Isn't that interesting...??

Today was suppose to be my free day =(

Obviously I took the opportunity to sleep more. But the moment I woke up, I remembered what I had to do...my proposal. This is what happens when your whole committee is busy with their own internship...you do everything on your own. Oh well...

Just today, I got good news. Hehe... My "driver" is coming back from Australia. So happy...

Now I'm....
Tired of some things.
Trying to sort out some things.
Missing some thing.
Keeping it down under and cool.

Need to keep my eyes, heart and mind focused on that thing that I discussed with my mom yesterday. Need to take it to the next level the best I can.

I went to renew my passport today. Just in case I'm going to Singapore again next year. Hehe...

As usual, the immigration department was packed with people. However, having the new passport with the chip is an added advantage above the rest. Haha... I just went straight to the kiosk to renew. It was simple and fast. I got my new passport in 2 hours time. Plus, the officer that was there to help me was very nice. He joked with me when the machine didn't take in my money. Haha... Oh well, bottom line is, things were done in a jiffy when lots of other people were still waiting there for their turn. Hehe...


Because I had to go renew my passport today, I slept extra early last night. Obviously so I can get up early and have the energy to NOT zombie around the huge crowd. But... Sigh... I never would have thought that I would get a call at 3am from a person who's crying.

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE.... If you're gonna call me and tell me that you want to die, then don't bother wasting your money by calling me cause I will tell you to go right ahead.

Although I'm normally patient in this sort of matter such as helping people sort out their problems and all, any NOOB will get frustrated when you're calling in the middle of the night. To add to that, whatever I said was like the wind rustling past a person's ear... it doesn't go in the head. OMG man... I don't mind listening. I don't mind advising. But for heaven's sake and for MY sake, please have some consideration next time.

Consultation hours: 11am - 10pm ONLY

Now, let me explain some simple things...

If you've already put the thought of suicide in your mind, and you don't plan to do it, then don't say that you want to. Because God knows and I know that you will never do it. Psychologically speaking. So, isn't it wasting time to say it out and moan about it??

And... if you're looking for someone to comfort you, please take in whatever the person has got to say... especially when it is IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. There I was sleeping soundly away that I didn't even realize I picked up my phone when it rang and was talking to the fella on the other side already for quite some time. Seriously, I can't remember what I said. So yeah... but it shouldn't be anything stupid. I think that whole time that I was "unconciously" talking, I was probably listening to the story more. My mind was half awake. What do you expect?! Anyways, as usual, I gave my advice as I see appropriate... but... I don't think it went through to the other person. Cause I was asked to listen to part of the story and all that. And... that part of the story was unnecessary to be heard especially at such an hour. You'd think that at such an hour the person would cut the story short and get to the point.

I had to do it. If not, I would be awake till this morning, listening. What else can I do but cut the person off and tell the truth that telling me so and so will not help the situation and bla bla bla...

Dude... consideration PLEASE... not that I don't want to help. I'm always willing to help. But at the correct time. Seriously...

Now I'm seriously considering a change in my major. I should have done Psychology like what I had in mind before I came in to UTAR. After much rejection from my dad last time, now he's agreeing to the point that I'm suitable to be in Psychology. A bit too late right? Slowly wait... I'll make it my 2nd degree.

P/s: If you feel SOMETHING by reading this post, please understand that I don't mean that I don't care/won't listen/take it as troublesome/bothering. It was only the time factor that got me frustrated.

Note: I do not charge. Thus, don't expect too much from me as I'm not 100% qualified. So, I WILL ask you to kill yourself if you persist with the idea. Only when you pay the person, either a Psychologist/Psychiatrist, they won't ask you to kill yourself.

I think the Yuen genes are starting to kick in like what Johnny said. Here's the explanation why...

I went to eat seafood with my family. After eating... me, my dad and my bro wasn't full. Actual fact, we wiped out everything clean. So I decided...hehe....round 2. KTZ. One of my favourite place... eat what I love to eat. The Kiwi Loh and my seaweed roll...again. Haha... (thanks to Kelvin and Ivan for tapau-ing the seaweed roll on friday...hehe) So, I'm hoping that I won't gain weight AGAIN since I like to eat all sorts of food. Haha... Its a blessing to be able to eat like this ok?

After this morning, I'm confirm going for Youth Camp. Don't know whether it is a good or bad thing. Must pray on it.... And also bring my survival kit. I'm going there to rough it. Sigh...

I've made up my mind clearly. After this month, I won't touch anything regarding SRC/ and UTAR stuff. December is going to be my month to enjoy. I'm not going to fill my holidays with the STUPID event and work myself up. My eff-ing time doesn't belong there especially when it's not worth it. So yeah....toodles~!

let me just lose grip on things a little bit so that I can fall back and enjoy the breeze~

I waited for the clock to show that it has pass 12am to start blogging again so that it would look like it's for the next day =D

Lame...I know.

Truth: I just watched finished the whole Blood+ series. Such a touching ending for a blood filled anime. *sobs*
You'll be amazed how I finished 50 episodes of anime in just 5days. That's how addicted I can get to stuff.

Sudden no mood at the dinner table. Started to be gloomy. *slaps self* "Oi!! what's this?! very fun is it being like that?" "positive a bit please, world haven't end yet" Comes back home, runs to room and hugs teddy bear...then....watch anime.
-sounds crazy??-welcome to the daily life of Pearly Yuen~

Losing it...
Study also losing it...don't study also losing it.
How now??
Please tell me how.....

I'm obviously not the type that can sit at home and stare at walls. I need to do something or go somewhere. How?? HOW...??

sleep.

Absolutely no comment about the talk yesterday. I had no idea that we went all the way there just to be asked to sit in the lobby area and look at the live projection of the talk. Interesting....


But... we did manage to get a picture with Dr. Mahatir's wife. Apparently Ivan got more pics...

That aside....

I went to Raub today to visit the Youth Camp campsite. Seriously not what I had in mind. It was an NS camp. Like literally. Super ulu place with lots of bugs. OMG... We went there in a van. Highly uncomfortable van. Me, Samantha and Johnny thought we were about to be poisoned from all the carbon monoxide that we breathed in inside the van. For some reason, it seemed like the exhaust gases were flowing back into the van. On top of that, all 3 of us sat in the van thru and fro till our butts hurt. The ride was bumpy...super bumpy. We were like coke bottles being shaken. All we needed was to wait for the time where we got sick. Thank God non of us did...especially me. Have to be super prepared for Youth Camp this year.

Today it really got me.

I thought I had the chance. I thought the opportunity was coming right to my doorstep. I was excited. I never felt happier in such a long time. It was like brand new hope all over again. It was practically speaking my dream out loud. My Dream....

It was gone sharp at 7.18pm today. I never felt so crushed before. That sparkle of joy and hope was gone in a blink of an eye literally. I really found it hard to smile, hard to laugh...even at the best joke you can throw at me. Everything was drained out instantaneously....

I'm really, truly, extremely disappointed and sad.

Really sorry to my friends who were there to see that split second change in my emotions.

Note: It has nothing to do with my love life/ frienship or what-so-ever.

After so much... I remembered 1 song that is suitable for those that are stuck in the same and probably worse situation as me..

Just Stand Up
The heart is stronger than you think
It's like it can go through anything
And even when you think it can't, it find its way to still push on
Sometimes you want to run away
Ain't got the patience for the pain
And if you don't believe it looks into
your heart the beat goes on

I'm telling you
Things get better
Through whatever
If you fall, dust it off, don't let up
Don't you know you can go be your own miracle
You need to know

If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don't give up
Who are we to be questioning, wondering, what is what
Don't give up
Through it all, Just stand up

It's like we all have better days
Problems getting all up in your face
Just because you go through it
Don't mean you gotta take control, no
You ain't gotta find no hiding place
Because the heart can beat the head
Don't wanna let your mind keep playing you
And saying you can't go on

I'm telling you
Things get better
Through whatever
If you fall, dust it off, don't let up
Don't you know you can go be your own miracle
You need to know

If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don't give up
Who are we to be questioning, wondering, what is what
Don't give up
Through it all, Just stand up

You don't gotta be a prisoner in your mind
If you fall, dust it off
You can live your life
Let your heart be the guide
And you will know that you're good if you trust in the good
Everything will be alright
Light up the dark, if you follow your heart
And it will get better
Through whatever

If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don't give up
Who are we to be questioning, wondering, what is what
Don't give up
Through it all, Just stand up

And so.... Finally I got to meet up with my twin today. Random and sudden plans. But, we're always like that anyways...no big deal. Can say we caught up a lot on our own lifes and stuff. Slight stress reliever as well cause I don't need to get my brain involved in PARASITE business.

I think... I should change my major. I'm so in the wrong course!!! Should have taken up psychology like I wanted to before I enter UTAR. Darn!!! Yeah... I'm using my past experience to help people... obviously to overcome their own personal stuff. Sorry...the pros do not reveal people's stuff to others. Hehe... I need more outings with my twin before she gets stuck in the stupid place called Sg. Petani.

Okay... now there's another issue about my hair. What is this?? Speechless already... Different people different comment. Even within my own family!! What the.....

Thou has got to minimise cursing....and save it for those who deserve it.

Tomorrow (or technically today) is.... MY day. Free from everything and fully devoting my time to.... watching anime and being a pig/sloth at home. I've got to get some good games to play. Fill up my time and destress by maybe killing a person or two. (see how fast the determination for studying has flown away?)

Apart from that... I've decided to be super noisy and blog more in this post =p

I'm STILL figuring out how to lose weight. Yes.. its an utterly sad story.... I might just resort to anorexia/bulemia to have a go on the crash course *blegh*

I'm in need for new glasses. Think my power is increasing cause I keep tearing the whole day. Lack of funds... sad story again.....

I need to do a bit of shopping cause it's SALE time and I want to get some new clothes... like duh!!.... Lack of funds AGAIN... sad story AGAIN.....

I'm planning to buy my own camera. Although I have my faithful W810i, I think having my own camera would still be good cause I like to take random pics of scenery and so on so forth and mom says I'm pretty good at it. Lack of funds AGAIN... sad story AGAIN.....

I'm in desperate need of holiday again. Lack of funds AGAIN... sad story AGAIN.....

This is seriously sadden-ning!!! So when I say I'm sad, you know why. FINANCIAL CRISIS!!!

When do I get to see the beaver in Kampar??

Due to the fact that I've just watched 4 episodes of Blood+ continuously, I find that there is a sudden need to blog to release some stress/tension/shit. Or else I might need to drink blood soon also.

I really agree with Ms Lim to a certain point. Everything revolves around THAT now. I'm in UTAR again almost every other day. Now, I call IT a damn PARASITE. Not only is it draining my energy unneccessarily, but it's also wasting my time... only to know that the effects/outcome is negative.

I'd quote....
"as time goes by, things fade...
as time goes by, people change"

This damn PARASITE has brought along unhappiness. There's a whole lot of WTF moments. After hearing from my own committee, it's added WTF comments to the PARASITE. I don't deny that there are times where I would really like to say, "I quit SRC". All thanks to....?? Yes, PARASITE. I was at a point 2 days ago when I said, "Screw the PARASITE". But now, I can't. Another f***ed up moment. This is parallel to the saying, "NO CHOICE". I DO NOT want to spend all of my holidays for the PARASITE.

Since I'm already at this point, I don't want to regret anymore. I only like to rant. But there is 1 thing I definitely regret. And for sure, after my term ends, I'll WIPE it away. I'll apply Selective Amnesia. Yeah, I'm going to write-up a paper on Selective Amnesia soon once I'm done applying it.

Us the crazy bunch although we don't look crazy here. (*Ryh Shin and Foong Kheng missing)

No doubt... this is not my holiday. It's worse than a normal semester. Meetings here and there. Discuss this and that. Think and think and THINK!!! I'm sure Tjun Kong feels the same pain as I do. People just want more everyday. Now isn't that "great" news??

Almost half my term as a Student Rep is gone now. Although I have been doing things, but I haven't achieved that very thing that satisfies me yet.

Note: My personal satisfaction is not getting things to benefit myself....it's in the form of achievement.

So, since now is my so called holiday, I am reflecting back on things to see where I can do better. Of course, to make sure I'm on the right track as well... Doing things for students and not for my own. After much deliberation, I am on the right track... just the more bumpy one. Some things I've got to face up to and some things which I'll just hold it all in. I realise that it's important to keep a control of myself. Those who knows, I'm sure you know what happens when I lose control of myself and things. Trust me...it gets not only horrible but ugly as well.

Even with the on-going pressure, I have set a new target, more like a new determination....YESH!! That is...... to study more. Bummer... I even got my next semester subject books already.

For those who thinks that I'm super free just because I'm having holidays, please don't think so. I'm sure you'll never meet anyone as busy as me when they are on semester breaks. I think I'm getting lesser sleep now than when it's exam time. I need to start up my brain earlier to prepare for next semester's battle with all my subjects. Currently... my brain is still in fried mode... need to un-fry it but don't know how. Any good suggestions??

I still don't understand the thing with my student ID picture. I went to my campus library to borrow some books today. I have to give my ID to borrow the books you see. And the librarian took my ID, looked at it and asked me, "it's not you right?". What is the problem?? Goodness... Must go to ICTC make another 1 already man. No one believes it's me. Luckily she still allow me to borrow the books. But she take a few looks at me and at my ID. AIYO.....

These days are packed with things and spontaneous activities. And to think that it was actually my SEMESTER BREAK!!! There's something going on everyday. In some ways interesting... In some ways not. Everything's packed up till my semester starts. OMG... This is what I call a "holiday". I so want to go back to Camerons where there's nothing to think and do except breathing the nice fresh cooling air.

Mom just reminded me that my homebased work is almost at its dateline this friday. I've still got like 60 more pages to go before compiling. I think my eyesight power has gone up thanks to this...

I finally got to watch...High School Musical 3. Yesh!! It's better than the 2nd one I would say. And it's truly inspiring as usual. Good for high school kids. Unfortunately, I'm not one anymore... But it's still good to watch. Portrays the simple happiness that high school kids have.

I feel..... There's a lot to sort out. All's jammed up. Frustration... Confusion. Maybe it's taking its toll on me cause I just walked into the grill that's used to block off my kitchen so my dogs can't enter. I practically walked right into it as though it wasn't there and fell down on it and scrapped my knee with a few bruises as well. Nice isn't it?? Well... I couldn't explain it to myself as well why I just walked right into it when it has been there for so long and I've never walked into it. So, I find it weird... unexplainable.

Today is one of those days where I just feel down the moment I woke up from sleep. One of those unusual day where I think about things more than the other days.

Uncertainty... the main question that swivels in thou's brain.

I'm hoping that fast and more jovial songs will help turn this down-ness around, but so far it is not working still.... I'm going to bed down and moody =(

*note: this has nothing to do with the previous day

Today is indeed an.....interesting day. I bet those who was there will agree.

First things first.... I have been a kuli for 2 days already. That's why I wasn't online if some of you were wondering or I did not reply any emails. I have been helping my parents to paint the rooms including my own and tomorrow will be another day of kuli work. But, the interesting part is just about to start.

Me, Kah Yee and Kelvin went to Sg. Long at night for UTAR Ball meeting. Remember how our stomachs "growl" Kah Yee?? So... we had our "INTERESTING & FUN-FILLED" meeting. Then we headed for a mamak session. After that.... *crash*. There goes my car window. Someone broke my car window and stole Kelvin's bag. So we went to the forever useless police. Now I wonder why we bothered wasting our time there also. Couldn't even report cause the "investigating officer" is in Kajang. Fly kite la go there.... So we just decided to go back home. Ivan helped me fetch Kah Yee home.

But 1st, we stopped in Carrefour Subang to let Kelvin pick up his car. 2nd unfortunate event. All of Carrefour's grills/shutters were down. The only way in and out is closed. So GG lo...what else? Ivan have to send Kah Yee home then send Kelvin home too.

Really a series of unfortunate events. But it's ok... We still had a fun time laughing and joking in the car. Great that we got to know more people too... Can laugh more. Hehe... Laughing is essential...so is pork (*internal joke)

*Thx so much to Ivan for helping me quite a lot tonight.

I was dead SICK yesterday!!! Sick until the only time that I got out of bed was to go to the toilet to vomit. Who would have imagined the effects of food poisoning to be so "GREAT". Trust me, it was the worse experience of food poisoning that I've gotten. I couldn't eat, even drinking water was a problem cause I can't get myself to swallow the water. Even after swallowing the water, it's bound to come out again. So yeah... I was pretty much dehydrated to the maximum.

At first, I only felt discomfort and thought it was nothing. Then, I starting moaning to my mom and she didn't believe me. Not till.... I vomited.

No energy at all this morning. Dragged my feet out of bed, went downstairs to TRY to make myself feel better. But... I slept on the sofa again. For like another 2-3 hours. Haha... Could barely eat still today, but got myself to eat a bit or else I would be pretty much dead-like for not eating for 2 days. Currently recuperating...

Today...no, more like last night, was the dinner celebration for my grandma's birthday. She's 89 this year I think. Haha... Yeah, I can't really remember how old is she. Either 89 or 90 years old this year. Sorry, no pics of the dinner. Family not a big fan of taking pics.


Before the dinner, my family brought my grandma from the retirement home back to my home first. She mentioned to us that one of the old grandpa there passed away just few days ago. Then, I remember her asking me the previous time when am I graduating. That was like about a month back only. Of course I told her that it won't be so soon. Then she replied me saying that she hope she can make it to see me graduate. OMG... I almost teared and cried. Today brought back that feeling cause I just have that feeling that she's just waiting there in the retirement home for her time to come. This makes me want to push myself in everything more... *sobs sobs*


Aside that. When we were on our way to go pick up my grandma, there was a miserable jam at the traffic lights near Summit, the ones that head towards the highways and out of USJ. Due to the rain, the traffic lights malfunctioned. They keep flickering yellow and red. So all the drivers drove like 3rd world mentality people did. They drove with no compromise. In the end, all the cars were stuck around a small area because the traffic goes round and it's a chain effect. Everyone refused to back up and it was so obvious that if no one took the initiative to reverse to let one side go, the traffic will not move at all.


This was the situation...
So as you can see, it's like a jammed up circle. (forgive my drawing =p) The situation got a bit tensed after a while when everyone noticed that no one was going anywhere because no one was willing to move. Everyone started honning... like that will do anything. So... I went out of the car and wanted to approach the cars in front of us to ask if they can compromise a bit and reverse so that we can at least get the traffic to move. But... dad yelled for me to get back into the car.

BUT... I think me doing so got people to realise that they needed to do something as well. And after arguing with my dad for quite a while, I finally reasoned with him for him to be the 1st to get out of the car and talk to the drivers in front to compromise. Then, other people started coming out of their cars too. And finally, the traffic started moving again.


In this situation, I feel both disappointed and a bit happy.

Disappointed because my own dad insisted on waiting for others to make the 1st move to discuss with the drivers to ask them to compromise. He waited until I decided to do something due to fed up-ness of 3rd world mentality.

Happy cause I didn't think I would have the courage to step out of the car to try and do the right thing.


So people, this teaches you not to always wait for others to take actions 1st. It wouldn't hurt for you to step up and do something right? Of course, you must know the situation that you are in 1st too. A little courage and a little compromise among all of us will do our society good. It'll definitely give our society the change it needs.

I need to apply the slogan, "You can make a difference" Haha... It's because you truly can. Think about it. If I wait for you, and you wait for another, and another wait for yet another... Then who's going to make the move in the end?? In the end, nothing will be done. Which is excatly what is happening in our country.

We're the next generation right? So do something... not illegal stuff.

The cultural event today went quite well. No doubt there were few bumps here and there due to the miscommunication on the Japanese people's end, but it turned out fine. Thank God for His blessings for smooth program flow for the performances because it was so much better than it was during rehersals.

Today is the day where we really can't understand completely what the other party was saying. It's like the duck talking to the chicken. For all I know, they can never understand each other. But... of course this event has it's own pros. The fact is... although the students are high school students and obviously they are very much younger than us (about 16-17 yrs old), the guys are cute. Haha!!! That's right. Plus, they have their own style in fashion and hairstyles, which looks pretty nice. Anytime better than those "lala" fashion that is happening around us. Next time, take a visit to Japan and have a look for yourself. Japan will be the ideal place to wash your eyes for both girls and guys. Trust me.

And so, that concludes the day today. My feet are killing me thanks to walking around in heels the whole day. Crazy...

And so, we'll be having a Cultural Event tomorrow for the Japanese students who are visiting UTAR tomorrow. Hopefully all goes well. The committee has put in so much effort into it and Kudos to them. The preparations really looks great. We'll see what happens tomorrow then...

Apparently, I'm out of ideas as to what to blog about. I'm brain dry. Hehe... So I'll just crap after the cultural event tomorrow.

The past few days, due to lack of activities, this gal got herself to reflect and look back on things again. As in everything and every aspect. So, nothing much happened and I wouldn't want to bore anyone with my emo nonsense... Let's keep that where it should be, which is untold and unknown to others.

And so, I'm out of what I call it the "shit hole".

Now, why is it called a "shit hole". The main reason is because of its people. Due to the fact that the people that work there are undescribably "nice and smart", the place turns into what is known as the "shit hole".

Okay. Back to the point. It is momentary joy to be out of that place. Can't believe I wasted my time there, even if it's only 2 days. Let me describe what happened...

the dumbnut head of department:
Day 1: " The head of department is not in la. She's on leave until thursday. I will split you both into departments. You don't touch anything and don't disturb my staff also."

Note: The person who said that the head of department isn't in, is actually the head of department.

Day 4 (today): "We are not responsible to prepare your learning schedule. It should come from your university. If they want you to learn, they should send an officer with you to come here (the hospital). We are not paid to teach you. Your purpose here should be to learn of and experience the working environment only, not to do hands on work. You can only look at what they do and ask questions if you want to. But my staff don't need to teach you. It is government policy that the students can not touch anything. You should have known when you apply."

Note: How in the world am I suppose to know the government policy when I'm not working there? Does it make sense?

So yeah, what's the point of being there? Wasting toll money, petrol money, food money, and most important thing of all, my time!! But, thanks to the nice girl which I got to know there, the only chinese girl in the micro lab, I got to secretly do some work and play with some of the stuff. It is only today, after I hand in my withdrawal letter, that I got to do more work. Seriously speechless about that place.

Lesson is.... government bodies/institutions are unreliable and a waste of time. They waste tax payers' money too. The Head of Department, a Pathologist, gets paid RM 10k per month to just sit there and look at slides occasionally. Isn't life "great" for them and us??

So, results are out. Wasn't what I expected. For some subjects, I expected worse but I got much better. For those which I squeezed my brains dry on it, I got lesser than what I expected. So I don't really know what to think of it and what to think of myself. Feel very very much stupid and disappointed.

But, life goes on, and tomorrow is yet another day. Have to keep striving and hopefully it gets somewhere soon...like really really soon.

Although I'm not attached for placement anymore, but I still do have a job. Homebased job..which is good. I get money...for me to splurge when I'm unhappy, then I get fat again. Anyways, hoping to get another one so that I can save up enough to fund my Singapore trip plan next year. Have to be independent in everything now that I'm of the legal age. Sudden OLD feeling...sad.

Ok, I won't talk about my "training" today. It's simply boring to the point where it is undescribable.

Music.... makes the world go round. Hehe... At least it makes MY world go round. Without music, I'll be pretty dead.

And... I so so love these songs now... Truly beautiful and touching...

The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script
"Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got you picture in my hand
Saying if you see this girl, can you tell her where I am
Some trying to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke, I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you..."

Come On Get Higher - Matt Nathanson
"I miss the sound of your voice
I miss the rush of your skin
I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe in and I breathe out
If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
Make you believe
Make you forget..."

Well, there's more actually, but they're old songs. Those 2 are the new songs. Hehe...

I just realised that I've "stolen" and downloaded quite a number of dramas and movies into my external hard disk and laptop that I've not touch or seen till now. Well well... marathon. Hehe...

Oh no!! Results will be out soon. Like really really soon.... High blood pressure, leading to angina, leading to myocardial infarction when I see the results. Oh God... All the best to those taking results soon also.

Today is the first day of training....

I need to start it off by saying that I made the wrong decision to enter Putrajaya Hospital. No doubt they have some cool equipment there that I've not seen before. But the people there have are not friendly. Sigh... How can I get myself out of this placement? Or do I have to just suffer the 3 months?? Thinking of it makes me sad...like really sad till wanna cry kind of sad. I literally yawned the whole day through due to boredom. Yawn until now jaw tired and pain already.

I don't wanna go back tomorrow....... *sobs sobs*

Okay... The day today (Tuesday) was rather plain. I just sat at home the whole day. Woke up early in the morning to drive dad to work and then it was back home to do some house work and then lay on my sofa and get stuck there the whole day. Yeah, I'm that lazy. I vow to go on some kind of diet. But still I'm eating nonsense once in a while. Can't resist temptation... lack of determination.

Finally just now, like finally of all the finallys.... I've cleaned up my messy table. It'll be messy again when the semester starts back. It has become a norm. Sigh...

Normally, I don't like to stop, sit down at home and not do anything. It's cause, it gets me to think of all the nonsense I can and it is not good for health seriously. However, today's different.... finally again =p Instead of nonsense, I started to notice the things that I've been liking all the while but just haven't got the time to notice it.

So here they are:.....my loves =)
a) definite love for travelling. in town or out, still love it, but have more love for out of town places =)
b) spending time around my dogs....haha...yeah.
c) cute fluff toys. (normal right?)
d) finding good food and splurge on them
e) to lie down anywhere comfortable and not move for the rest of the day
f) scout and hunt down good music
g) random dancing
h) spontaneous actions or activites or plans
i) swimming
j) shoe shopping... Lol!!
k) doing silly things when no one's around
l) capturing random beautiful moments with my faithful W810i
m) SLEEP!!!
n) being around close friends

Okay, there's more actually. But no point further boring people with it. I'm sleepy again although I slept in the afternoon...haha!! Time to sleep.

I'm back from the high lands called Camerons.


Wish I was still there. No...actually I literally wish I could live there. The air is good and it's cold. Life is simple and nice. I'm definitely going back there soon. Haha...

Note: Anywhere which is out of town, slow life, simple and serene, almost immediately captures me. =p

Once again, I got car sick on the way up. Don't ask me why. I just do. I was pale when we reached Brinchang. That's like one of the town areas in Camerons and it's somewhat near to the hotel I stayed in. However, this time I could get out of the car on my own unlike the time I went up Frasers at night. That was seriously crazy. My brother had to literally drag me out of the car.

So...Camerons doesn't have as much bugs as Frasers and they sure do not have LEECHES!! Haha... There's like strawberries everywhere. Oh God... it's like seeing red everywhere. At some point it was a bit annoying. Think they're over-publicizing the strawberries.

First day was not much. Reached up there around evening, so I didn't go to the farms and all. Just walked around town and see what's there. Went to the night market there and once again, strawberries everywhere. There's lots of vegetables and fruits also, and....flowers. The various colours of the roses and other flowers really makes me happy. So, I bought quite a bit of roses. They're only RM 11 for I think about 30 stalks of roses. Definitely can't get it here in KL. KL means chop chop for any sorts of flowers, unless you have a green thumb and you grow them yourself. All the way up there and my parents still buy durian to eat there. OMG... never ending durian craze. There's nothing much to do there at night. More of relaxing and enjoying the coldness there. Which is precisely what I want and what I need.

Second day... The morning air is really fresh. And cold!! There's no air-cond in the hotel room, only ventilation and the sliding door for the air to come in through the balcony area. The sliding door was not open, only the ventilation. And still it was darn cold. All my clothes was cold when I put them on, including my sweater. Aihs.... I had to wear 3 layer of clothes this morning just to so called survive the coldness. Yeah... my dad walked around in 3 quarter shorts. See the difference? The walk around the area and the farms confirms that.... I'm heading towards a serious level of fatness!! I was out of breath in like 20minutes of walk. What the.... This is madness.

Although I really enjoyed the trip, I have to suffer now to diet. *cries* My fatness is super obvious and embarassing. Can't take it... Going to go on a crazy exercise mode throughout holidays.

Oh...there's some pics too but I haven't load them into my comp yet. So I'll probably post them up later cause I'm still dead tired now. Can't really adjust back to KL heat.

This would be day 3 till day 5 of freedom combined =p

I finally took the time back to go swimming and to at least exercise a bit. Or else, I wouldn't want to imagine what the outcome would be if I did not do anything and remain being a couch potato. It'll be horrible!! And so, I'm determined to exercise more...meaning more sports, and also more chance of injury coming back again. Swt!! I suddenly feel old thanks to all my miserable injuries. Nevertheless, it shows that I've worked hard before for some things right? Haha...!!!

Apart from exercising, life's filled with sleeping, watching tv, going random shopping and "yum cha" sessions. Better than 24/7 studying and looking at the book. Bound to go crazy. Of course I enjoy sleeping the most. It's my all time favourite hobby. Can't help it...it's so good that it tempts me everyday. Simply irresistable (note: it is only resistable in certain circumstances).

Sigh... Some people ask me why don't I get to know who who who. Now let me make it clear once and for all. I would know you if you let me do so. If not, I wouldn't want to go through the trouble of TRYING to know someone who doesn't want to let me know anything. Rather ridiculous don't you think? I've been there and done that. So, I know how stupid and tiring it can be. Wasting time...

And... I do not like to be manipulated as well. You can bet your life that I know what's happening no matter how good you are in manipulation. You'll see the difference soon after...

The weekend is almost here. Time flies when I'm doing something and it seems to slow down when I'm just bumming around at home. Nice isn't it? And so, it flew down to the weekends already. I'll be heading for Camerons on Saturday and enjoy the nice air there unlike our nice city. And also to get away from the hectic city life. Everyone's always rushing here and there. Life's at such a fast pace although we're able to slow it down. So, it's time to slow it down for a day or 2. Wouldn't hurt right? Instead, it helps the human body, mind and soul. Hehe...

Today, I had a discussion with one of my girls about speaking English and the English accent of different people. I was once told that I'm not Malaysian because of the way I speak English and my accent. I'm telling you that I'm 100% pure Malaysian with China citizen blood ok? It's because I'm English based and those fellas are Chinese based. That's why I sound like some foreigner in Uni. Besides that, I'm a pure Malaysian.

I remember the 1st day that I stepped into Uni. I could barely speak mandarin. I could understand but getting words to come out of my mouth with the correct intonation is hardly and rarely. So it was quite difficult. But, I can speak more now. Haha... As compared to last time that is. And now, my English standard is fluctuating. When I'm in a semester, my England goes down the drain. When I'm on hols, my English becomes the foreigner English that people call it to be. And when I speak like that in Uni, people can hardly understand me. So yeah.... pfft!!

Ok. Tired of writing crap already....

WARNING: Content is filled with foul languages due to the fact that the author is awesomely pissed and is forced to resort to them to vent out anger. Hence, read at your own expense.

Note: In normal days, such vocabulary is non existent in author's dictionary. This is a special circumstance.

Day 2 of freedom....

Comm meeting today. Finalise some stuff, joke about and laugh at most of the stuff, discuss about some stuff and ignore some stuff too. Lots of things to do but at the moment doesn't seem like it. Wonder why...

After meeting, went for lunch with friends in KLCC. Our initial plan was to have lunch and go for a movie to de-stress. But...due to the fact that we ate our lunch then continued to sit there and talk, we lost track of time and didn't manage to catch a movie.

Anyways, after our random walking, we went back and found my friend's car tires punctured. 2 of them!! And it was obvious that it was deliberately punctured cause there was another car that was in the same situation as well. So, we tried making a police report and it didn't work. We went back to the car and tried to change the tires on our own and realised that we did not have enough energy to do so!! Sad... And so, we got a mechanic to get it changed.

While me and my friend were waiting for my 2 other friend to get the mechanic to come, the house owner of the house opposite our car came home. The idiot scolded us from inside his house compound that the space was HIS space and the stupid "palang" was there for a reason. Actual fact is that, the stupid "palang" was at the side of the road and did not show any sign that it was meant to reserve the space. So we just replied NICELY that we'll move the car once we get the tires fixed eventhough we know now that it's that idiot who punctured the tires. BUT....it wasn't enough for that idiot. He came out of his house, walked up to me and shout at me while asking if I had a problem with him. Not only once, but twice. The first phrase that came to my mind: "WHAT THE F***!!!". He kept shouting that we should know better than to park opposite people's house in a housing area. Now, tell me.... Is there a rule stating that you can't park opposite another person's house in a residential area?! And there is no f***ing rule stating that you can reserve the stupid parking space that you don't f***ing own with just a miserable "palang" either. The idiot then continued to say that if we don't move the car in 10minutes, he's going to call people to come and whack us. See how civilised Malaysians are?? We called the police straight and it went to the operator first. The brainless operator asked me if it was an emergency. Right after I said it was, she continued to ask me all sorts of question before telling me that she will connect me to the police headquarters. How f***ing stupid can you get that you do not understand the meaning of emergency?! So fine, patience got me to wait for a little while again before I started explaining all over again to the police. Right after I finished explaining, all he said was "OK" and then hung up the phone. See how f***ed up our Malaysian system and government servants can be??

At the end of the day, the a****** got away with it. I really have every mind to sue the hell out of him for threatening us. It's illegal for your information. It is because our system and law is so flawed in ways like these that makes most of the new generation leave this country. Even after coming home, my anger has not toned down even a bit. The thought of that situation really pisses me off badly at how unfair things can be. If we actually waited there and BELIEVED that the police will come, the 4 of us would've probably ended up dead by now. Thanks so damn much!!

From a happy day with friends, it became sour due to the existence of idiots like these.

I would never EVER trust my life in the hands of policemen EVER AGAIN. All these put together, explains why this country is still considered to have 3rd world mentality. Tell the whole word that you own the whole damn road while you're at it.

Okay...really high blood pressure already by just thinking about it. Hope YOU get what you deserve REAL SOON.

Day 1 of freedom...

I woke up late today but still managed to get myself to church. Enjoyed church very much today, especially the sermon. Really spoke to me. It reminded me that I've got things that needs changing. Quite a few things actually. Hmm....

After church, had a spontaneous and random karaoke session with Grace. We really sang our lungs out. Thankfully, my lungs aren't damaged yet. Haha...joking joking. Not that severe. But we did sing to release stress and also to fill time and dispell boredom of course. Nothing much at night though. Just stayed at home and finish watching Moonlight Resonance. Truly nice and heart warming =) So so touching!! Unfortunately, the series is over =( But it was a good show. Worth watching.

Hmm.... I need to find things to do tomorrow after meeting or else I'm going to bore myself to death. I just can't sit still at home if I'm not having exams. Seriously. I get agitated and frustrated. So, I need to find things to do. Can't afford to rot at home.

Well, it's 2.30am now and I'm not sleeping yet again. I'm going to be a zombie soon although it's past exam period. Don't know why I'm like that, so don't ask =p

Oh well...meeting once again...

This marks the end of the finals of Year 2 Semester 1. YES!! At last....freedom....for 2 weeks. Pfft!! Better than nothing...I'll take it. Hehe...

You'd think that the finals would have what I call a "smooth" finish or ending. But no.... it crash landed. The last paper was superbly, awesomely, incredibly and magnificently....idiotic, stupid, rubbish, miserable, mind and mood breaking. I do not wish to see that subject again. EVER. So, I hope that I get a reasonably decent grade for it although I know I wrote trash and junk in there which I don't know is usable or not. We'll wait and see when the results come out.

Don't want to think about exam subjects anymore. Throughout study week and my exam period, my best friend called "headache" paid me visits every single day. How thoughtful and faithful. I've been taking panadols almost every other day. I finished like 1 strip in 1 week. What's wrong...?!?! Hopefully, it will go away now that the studying, late nights and exam streak is over. So, my theory to this is: "studies causes deterioration of health and state of mentality"

Situation: Not only has exams given me headaches, it caused me to GAIN WEIGHT!!
Explanation: Studying uses up brain juice and burns brains. Thus, it would lead to the deficiency of energy to stimulate the brain to store up more information and to make logic out of things studied. This in turn causes human/subject/victim to consume food of larger portions and at more frequent intervals.
Conclusion: Studies are like parasites. They get the best out of you and you as the "host" suffer damages.
Treatment: Diet plan and exercise

After exam....
I had a vision in my mind that I would be resting at home, watching a movie on my laptop maybe and not moving at all. Instead, I was out shopping with family for bro's blazer. Amazingly, I barely felt tired although I hardly slept last night and the night before. And now, I can spend time blogging and transfering movies and dramas. Nice right? Haha.... But I'm feeling the after-effect now. Serious case of tiredness. I was so tired yesterday while studying that I couldn't open my eyes like normal. It was as though I cried the whole night, went to sleep and woke up with swollen eyes kind of can not open. Application of Eyemore did not work either. On top of that, I still don't feel like sleeping now although I'm tired! Hahahaha.....

Hmm.... Life's a little boring now. It always revolves around the same things. And so, I'm planning to fully utilize my 2 weeks of break. Since I just got to know yesterday that I won't have to go for meetings and get too busy with my work, I have more time to do other things other than work of course. Time to be random and spontaneous... Find things, go places, experience things to fill time =)