I really have the sign "PLEASE FRAME ME" on my forehead.
I got blamed for something I didn't do, twice today. I'm highly, 100% sure, that I didn't do it...either of it. But somehow, all the fingers still point back to me for some reason. And at the end of the day I'm owning up to and saying sorry for something that I'm so sure it wasn't my fault, in hopes that it will make things better.
And yeah, I've changed. I don't know in what way myself...seeing as I'm the owner of this mind, heart and soul. But if people insists that I've changed, then I have nothing to say.
Yeah,....
I don't let people walk over me now. I learn to stand up for myself.
Yeah,....
I worry a whole lot about my education than my student council work now.
Yeah,....
I can't stand people scolding me unneccessarily, especially when I can avoid it.
Yeah,....
I say sorry for the things that I did not do.
You're right. I have changed.
At the end of this walk, no doubt I still love my committees to bits no matter what happened before, but...
To all my committees,
I'm sorry that I was an uncapable leader and failed in performing my duties. Truly sorry.
R.I.P. to Michael Jackson. No matter what people have said about him or charged him for, he'll always be the legendary King of Pop. His songs have always been impactful to people's lives and they will always be.
The final bid goodbye to the King of Pop. No one can fill in those shoes.
I'm still contemplating on what to do for my final year. Argh~!!! Can't seem to make up my mind on 1 thing. So, here I am stuck with making a decision for my future.
And....I think time really changes a person. That one person that I've recently met up with has changed in a lot of ways. And the change is for the better although some things still remains the same.
*yawns* Lights out, bed time. Super sleepy now....
I think this is a very good song that stands up for abused women.
When is this all going to end??.... Although I'm able to take it all in, but I'm human too right? Oh wait...I remember, I'm made of steel and have no feelings. Right, that's it. Ok...go ahead and keep framing me. I "ENJOY" it so damn much.
Just when I'm loosening my grip on things, they flip. Nice. Time for more alco... Time to go back to the old ways again.
Don't feel like sleeping tonight. But I think the slight alcohol is helping. Gonna drown in journals and toxicology now...
I seriously have 1 lecturer who is mental!!!
First, she asks us for comments and feedback about her teaching and etc. And, she SAID that she won't fail us what-so-ever based on what we say. After a moment of silence and no one dares to say anything... She said, "No matter what you all say, I already have my justifications."
WTF!! So what is the whole point of asking us the dumb question and wasting our time? Oh right...the whole point was to WASTE OUR TIME!!!
I almost threw my phone at the wall just now. Why? 'Cause messages can't seem to stop coming in. Just when I want to concentrate to do my report, the phone keeps buzzing of messages coming in. And, I lose my train of thoughts for what to write.
Now you know, that you shouldn't sms me when I'm doing my work or else I'll end up getting awfully frustrated and I might just blow up.
Yes, I need some anger management classes now. All my "ganas-ness" is coming back.
Note: If you sms me at night and find that the message can't get through, then you'll know that I've switched off my phone.
My term as Student Council Chairman is coming to an end. There's like few weeks left to it. More precisely... 2 more weeks, then I'll be acting Chairman only. Hmm...there's sort of a mixed feeling in this matter. Well, I got to do what I got to do. And after this...I'm not wanted anymore. Haha!! Back to mundane life after that.
Now, at the end of this road....
Can I say that I've done my best?
Can I say that I've achieved something during my term?
Can I say that I've learned lots?
Can I say that I've become a better person from all this?
Have things made me wiser?
Have they made me smarter than before?
Did I do what was needed and expected of me?
Did I accomplish what I started out to achieve?
With all that...
I'm just hoping that...
I'll be able to hear the sound of applauses as I take a bow from my final scene.
I can't believe it. It's a miracle I tell you.
I remember being dead bored in Haematology on Tuesday although I did jot down my own notes and stuff. Surprisingly, I can remember what the lecturer taught on Tuesday and answered the question she asked us in class today although I haven't revised yet.
I think that it's really not cool to make use of your friends to do/get something that you want. Oh wait...that doesn't top the list yet. What's right on top is... making use of your friends to get your stuff done and that friend has to suffer some negative effects from your doing.
No...no...no... this is not something that I'm willing to tolerate.
Here's Chia doing stupid stuff again...trying to look like a nerd.
Besides that, nothing much happened over the past few days. Been trying to catch up with studies although it has only been 2 weeks.
And.... I've finally conversed with the French students that are doing research in our campus. Of course, all thanks to Richard for initiating the conversation. Now, let us see it go from there. Lol.
Meanwhile, I have plenty of work to be done and yet I'm still blogging. Haven't started studying yet when I keep telling myself I will. I'm going to get exophthalmus soon from reading proposals, rules and regulations and notes!!!
Note: exophthalmus = protruding eyes / eyes that looks like they're going to pop out
My digestive system is seriously screwed up. Trust me, constant indigestion is not funny. My stomach seems to have a mind of its own. It loves to dance around, topple and flip over after every meal, which causes the host (me) to feel darn sick that I might just turn pale instantly.
Nagging from the parents isn't helping either. Not when they're trying to out-smart me in my own field of study by feeding me wrong theories.
First academic week has came and is almost gone.
This semester...might leave me speechless at the end.
I thought last sem was bad. This sem is equally bad when I have 1 of the same lecturer as the previous sem. All-in-all, I have 5 subjects this sem, not including my final year project.
Here are the brief summary of my 5 lecturers:
Lecturer A: Loves to give a lot of notes, speeds through the teaching and expects us to know and remember every damn thing.
Lecturer B: Awfully nice and funny. And I've known him since I was in form 4!! Incredibly smart and witty fella and very understanding 'cause he knows that it's impossible to remember/memorise everything that is being taught throughout the semester.
Lecturer C: Looks....grumpy. Totally strict and crazy. And...whose teaching is a natural sleeping pill because it's called READING and it's so monotonous!!
Lecturer D: Doesn't look at all professional but people are paying him big bucks apparently to get him to comment on their works/stuff. Rather sane and logical person as well...
Lecturer E: Good LORD!! I can't understand a single word that comes out from that fella's mouth.
So yes.
And yes...I forgot to mention. My results for last semester was pretty unexpected. I thought so long and in every way of how I could pass even 1 of the subjects, but I couldn't find a reason apart from the lecturer must be crazy.
But...I passed all my subjects. No D's too. So it's good news. I don't care about those who're getting very much higher than me. With the amount of things that I need to do, I'm highly thankful for my results.
p.s. different courses have different levels of difficulty and i happen to be in 1 of the rather difficult courses. so don't compare me or my results with business students. that would be utter stupidity
