Finals have finally kicked off for us Biomedical Science students.
Yesterday was a total disaster. I'd like to call it jinx day. Sway to the max!!!
First of all, I left the house a little earlier cause dad got up early and started nagging me bout leaving early and all. No big deal...so I left early. And mom was like..."ate breakfast already or not? got take your vitamins? got take your bottle?". Yeah...sounds like I'm mummy's little girl still right? NOT!!! Moving on...the usual Summit jam. It normally takes me 1 turn of traffic light to get out of the Summit jam. But this time, it took me 3 turns. 15 minutes backed up. So I speeded a little (about 130-140km/hr...lol). The usual places which would be jammed, wasn't jammed. And then....the place which normally doesn't get jammed up, freaking got JAMMED!!! Reason: accident and everyone slowed down to look although the road is huge, wide, whatever.
All throughout my journey to uni, my stomach was playing games with me big time. And trust me, it's not pleasent especially when you're rushing for exam. I got to uni sharp 9am and my paper is at....9am. Great...and I went to the wrong block. GG-fied. I ran like nobody's business to the other block which is on the other side of the uni. Altogether, I was 15 minutes late for my paper. I wrote at super high speed like no one has ever seen before. Plus my brain malfunctioned a little due to all the rush and stomach discomfort. And it was english paper....crap. Bad start to this finals.
As for now, I'm feeling totally stressed. All kinds of stress that you can think of, except stress incontinence which means pee-ing (dripping more like it) involuntarily under stressful conditions. Crap...too much anatomy and physiology. All this because I realise that I've got 9 chapters to cover in 3days. Absolutely fantastically great is the stupidest craziest way. Mathematics for Bioscience is up next tomorrow. Hope nothing SWAY gonna happen again. Cause it's MATHS!!! I need the A. The whole estimation and hypothesis testing better not screw me up.
Got to get back to being a bookworm, nerd, whatever for now...
It's finals week people. And I still lack the darn determination that I should be having. My study break week was highly NOT productive. I spent a lot of time sleeping and doing other things instead of studying. Crap. I'm facing the possiblity of failing some subjects this semester and its not good. Sigh...
2nd dan grading is finally over. Waiting for results now. It'll be out tomorrow night. *crosses fingers* Thanks to fishy and Chan for coming to see me show severe rustyness. Did all I could for the grading till my body almost broke down when I finished. Thank God it didn't. Praying hard to pass now....
And...its back to the books again. Life revolves only around my books now. How pathetic.
Due to severe brain damage from studying Metabolic Biochemistry, I decided to crap out here.
If I could..., I would...
if i could be an international tennis player, i would
if i could travel the world everyday, i would
if i could get a job as a bed quality tester, i would
if i could save all those poor animals on the street, i would
if i could eat like there's no tomorrow and never grow fat, i would
if i could be some super intelligent person, i would
if i could get myself to study 24 hours everyday, i would
if i could prove a theory that says 1+1=11, i would
if i could prove that studying shrinks the brain, i would
and lastly...
if i could stop crapping, i would...be able to get back to my books XD
Yes people...this is the level of craziness I'm currently in.
Anyways, do you know that if you study a reading subject while you're doing business in the toilet, you would actually be able to absorb a lot of stuff. And I do mean a whole lot of stuff. Including toilet stuff. It's true. Of course, you have to aromatize your toilet first before using it and after using it. It's more advisable. You think about nothing but your "business" and what you are reading. Nothing else to bother you but "toilet sounds".
Finals is in a week's time. OH NO!!! Tragic. I have to study like crazy now for industrial training. Sigh....the signs of no life-ness. Scared mode now because of finals. No confidence. How to score a CGPA of minimum 3.0 for my course?? Can anyone tell me? Frustrated....
Cry
I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing
My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give it to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart
How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
All my life...
Back to the saddest part of life....studying on a sunday. All the best to those whose finals are coming soon; Grace, Pei Ying and a few others.
Getting fat, fatter and soon going to be the fattest of them all. *bwah!!!* The fatness is overwhelming now and it's strong....it's taking control. NOOOOO!!!!!!!!
Biostatics and Differential calculus is driving me nuts. Like really nuts... Got back my maths coursework marks just now. Hmm...don't know what to say but I guess my marks is ok....for me at least. Anatomy test 2 results was a disappointment. Effects of loafing around and going out till late at night the night before the test. Less is needed to say about Metabolic Biochemistry results. I don't want to know about it.
Just the thought of people planning to drop out of my course is rather scary. Proves that not everyone can cope with it. I'm....trying.... Need to get pass it no matter what.
Tomorrow is the start of Orientation Committee of May '08 meeting. Nervous at how I'm going to perform as a leader. ><
Metabolic test 2 is done, over, kaput, finito. YES!!! But now here comes the worse...finals. Anyways, I'm happy enough, for today at least, that the test is over. So many days of sleep deprivation. I practically die-ded when I got home after the test today. I only had like 1 to 2 hours max of sleep last night. Zombie....zombie.... I have sufficient energy now to last me the night. And tonight has to be beauty sleep night.
Was cramming and killing myself with biochem yesterday, even in uni. I expected to do badly for my biostats cause I did rather badly for the first test. So, I was prepared....not going to let the stupid results ruin my mood and so called determination to study for biochem. Then...results came. Oh no!!!.... Lecturer looked at my marks, then look at me and said "well done, very good". *dot dot dot* swt....blur.....oh....I got 35/40!!!! Fulamak!!!! Happiness....muahahahahaha..... Lecturer commented that I'm most probably the 2nd highest in class. =D I shall do the same for finals.
FEStival meeting took up a lot of my time yesterday, but it was fun. Get to know some new people. And yeah peeps. For the upcoming semester, UTAR FES Setapak will be having our FEStival. Please come over and enjoy yourselves. Bring your friends and uni mates, collegemates, whatever. Entrance is free of course. There will be games, food, performances and fashion shows.
So please come!!! =)
You can get the location of UTAR from me if you don't know your way. Hehe...
Look at the time people!! Haha...
Yup. It's 4 freaking am in the morning and I'm up hitting my books. Not only because I have a test this thurs, but also finals is up in about 3 weeks time >< I'm so not ready. My biological clock is totally turned over. Most of the time sleeping at around 9.30pm or 10pm and waking up at 1am or so to start studying. And I'm DEPRIVED of my precious sleep!!! Panda look...panda look. I really need to suck it up for the next 1 month.
So for those people whom I didn't reply when you guys messaged me on msn at night, now you know why. Haha... I'm so sorry.
My anatomy test is over today, or technically yesterday. It was a bitch. Although I sort of studied, but it still comes down to GG-ness. Plus 2 hours of sleep...total bitch. My brain couldn't process anything after the test. Fantastic eh?
Rights. Need to "bond" with my books now.
