heaven knows

Today… is the day… that I finish my last degree paper!! Yes, I’m rejoicing…inside  =P  A bit too tired and emotionless due to the lack of sleep to actually jump for joy now. But yeah, although the paper was rather “sucky”, I’m just glad it’s finally over. Now I’m just praying that I don’t have to repeat any subjects *touch wood*.

 

Now, let’s move on to holidays… hehe… But, my holidays will only last for 1 month or so. 3 weeks in Malaysia and 1 week in Perth, Australia. *wootz~!!* After that, back to studying again. Yeah, as many do not know yet, I got a scholarship to study a Post Grad Diploma in Sonography a.k.a. Ultrasound. So I’ll have another 1 year of studies left before heading out into the working world. I wonder if that is a good thing or a bad thing. But one thing’s for sure, this scholarship better be worth it ‘cause I turned down 4 job offers in my own field for this thing!! ARGH~!!! It is still frustrating to me to turn down those offers. But in a way, I know that I’m capable of being hired. HAHA!!! =P

 

And… let me “enlighten” those who think that it’s all about the grades to get a job or a good job. I’m telling you, through my experience of going through job interviews and such, it doesn’t matter how good your grades are. At the end of the day, it’s your skills and applications that matter. Go to an interview with a blank head and you’ll come back empty handed as well. You can be smart on paper, but it all comes to how smart you’re going to make yourself seem during an interview. For fields such as mine, Biomedical Science, I even got a mini-test during 1 of my interview sessions. LOL… It’s all about knowing and remembering what you studied. And let me tell you the next best thing… STUDENT COUNCIL LEADERS ARE HIGHLY SOUGHT AFTER EVEN IF YOU DON’T GO BACK TO YOUR OWN FIELD OF STUDY.  And that is the truth.

 

So, all the best to those who are out searching for jobs and going for interview. Please remember to bring along some “INTERPERSONAL COMMUNICATIONS” skills with you.

 

And that almost about wraps up my 3 years of Biomedical Science degree  =)

As quoted by Edna, I’ve finally signed the divorce papers with my Final Year Project and thesis. Should I jump for joy?? Of course I’m jumping for joy!! All those nights staying up to work on perfecting my thesis… it better pay off. LOL

 

Finals are coming next week. My preparations are half hanging still and I do feel like hanging myself at the same time. But then again… this is the last time I’ll be sitting for these sort of things. So, got to suck it up no matter what.

 

On an entirely separate note…

 

I do find things to be slightly more complicated now than they used to be. I often ponder on whether it is because I made them that way or it just spontaneously happened. I’m rather clueless about it myself. I even find it hard to define or explain how I feel and why I feel that way nowadays. Signs of psychosis or bipolar disorder maybe???

I have finally come to the end of writing my thesis. Yay~!!!! Yup, I officially finished the contents and main chapters at 5am this morning. And since I’ll have to be preparing myself for uni at 6am, I decided to stay awake anyway and torture myself with gastric.

 

My thesis was like my one and only hope left to pull up my grades this semester. That’s why I was crunching and scrutinizing it so badly. Finishing my thesis gave me a slight liberation. Although I’ve still got minor grammar corrections, at least the main text is done and I don’t need to crack my brains and eyes to hunt, print and read journals anymore. But I think I still need to a bit for my presentation next week. After next week, my final year project would officially come to a close and then it would be FINALS time.

 

I went for my 1st job interview yesterday and I think it went pretty well. At least I wasn’t one of those who couldn’t answer on how to do a blood grouping test. Haha… The answer just popped up from the back of my head. Amazing… But yeah, I’ll still have to wait for their confirmation whether they “want” me or not. I’m still considering that company though. Working hours are crazy. So… more like a 50-50 chance.

 

Anyways… time to go uni soon and probably caffeinate myself to stay awake the whole day. Last test tomorrow to wrap up all the midterms for the semester. Now you see how “sad” it is that almost everything is coming to an end?? Lol… up to your interpretation…

Yup… in a blink of an eye or maybe 2 eyes, the semester is almost coming to an end since now it’s already Week 11. Which means that the Grand Finale of Biomedical Science May ‘10 is approaching. I don’t know if I should be scared or relieved. LOL… but all in all, it was a good run.

 

My tutorial group had our convocation pictures taken last Thursday. Introducing, group 3 of Biomedical Science Graduating batch of May ‘10.

Well, it’s back to the streak of tests again. 4-5 more tests to go before the finals… last stretch of the race  =)

Yet another hectic week. It didn’t seem too hectic at first during the start of the week…till Wednesday came and I started to panic for my test. The funny thing was, I didn’t think that sleep and panic would go together, but they did eventually. LOL… I overslept and didn’t manage to finish reading the syllabus covered in the test. Another brilliant stunt which I haven’t tried pulling and this would be the first and hopefully the last.

 

Ok…the symposium last Sunday…

The waiting part was gruesome. Watching other participants getting shot by the panel of judges was pretty intimidating. All the UTAR participants got their equal share of getting shot down. So did I. But I got more of comments rather than questions. Pretty productive and beneficial I would say. Those comments gave me some pointers to include and improve my thesis. Hehe… So it’s all good. LOL

 

I got to meet up with some old friends this week. Met up with Zhao for lunch and movie, and also met up with Li Shan and May Yee after so long. I was quite happy to see them again and to talk about old times and also catch up on what we’re all doing now. Makes me feel old since we have so many old stories to tell each other. Haha… But it was good. Had a good time with both company. It’ll be good to do it again soon but with others as well.

 

I just realised that I sort of swamped myself with work. I scheduled too many things to be done and completed in a short period of time in order to buy more time for upcoming events. Hmm… is it a smart move or a bad move?? ‘Cause I’m barely getting sleep.

 

Speaking of sleep… I find that I’d rather stay awake nowadays than to sleep. No doubt I feel tired and drained and my brain is fried, but I would try to stay awake the best I can with minimum sleep. Yeah, I’m trying to adopt the “I can sleep when I’m dead” concept. I’m not too sure how it is working for me though. Should be getting more work done that way. And the whole point was to kill my brains so that it would not function to think of unnecessary stuff. It’s good to numb it all…

The weekend is approaching… which means that the Symposium is almost here!! I’m literally terrified of that thing. Seriously. I term it my public humiliation day. I’m just praying hard that it’s going to go fine and that I won’t get shot down by the panel with their intelligent questions.

 

Other than that… same ol’ same old. In and out of classes everyday. Assignments, thesis, reports…the usual. With all this going on, I find myself resorting to “happy” songs in hopes to cheer myself up at the end of the day or in between things. My definition of “happy” songs would be songs whose lyrics are of hope, being happy, about life…stuff like that. Most importantly, the music must be good too. Essential for a music junkie like me. LOL… And they’re SUPPOSE to CHEER me up. Whether they actually work… that’s another question right there.

 

Over time… I find that ignorance to certain matters can be pretty stupid as it doesn’t help to alleviate the problem at all. Dumping it aside only allows it to set in with time and then, the full effects gradually shows. In fact, I’m kind of missing it more than usual. Mind over emotions?? Can we really?? Definite subjective matter…

It has been a pretty long week although time passed in a blink of an eye.

 

Yup, time do tend to pass faster when you’re piled up with work and study plans. In fact, 24 hours never seem enough. Always wishing for more time to cramp in that extra study time or to finish up assignments and reports…or to SLEEP!!

 

Back to the topic about this whole week… now that the week is at its end…

I had 2 tests scheduled for this week. Initially, they were on Wednesday and Friday. Friday’s paper was obviously much easier to study for, so the one day gap wasn’t such a bad idea. Then… came the news on Tuesday that Wednesday’s test was postponed to Thursday. Which doesn’t leave me much time to study for Friday’s paper. Yes, I managed to put myself into that kind of stupid situation…always. But yeah… I studied for both subjects anyway, with minimum time allocated for sleep…let’s say, about 3-4 hours a day or night (day: refers to the accumulated hours of sleep during that day)?? I’ve been depending on caffeine (either in tea or coffee) to keep my mind and my body awake and moving. So… I was pretty much sleep deprived throughout the week.

 

Then… I went for another Wii party yesterday. Obviously I went in my “sleep deprived” mode. Although the test on Friday was in the morning and that was my only class, but I killed time by working on my assignment, having lunch with friends and fixing my car. I was still working on my Project Presentation when I was in my friend’s place. Now I feel like a typical workaholic. LOL… Half true. The work never stops and never ends.

 

Note: All this stress and workload has rendered my brains less efficient. It explains why I ended up answering my friend’s phone in an upside-down manner. Priceless…

 

Next week… Will be dread-filled fear-filled. My presentation is next weekend!! I can feel my stomach flipping over and doing cartwheels everytime I think about it. Plus, I have to put in time to study for my tests again… ARGH~!!!

 

DREAMLAND/LA-LA LAND… I’M SO SORRY THAT MY VISITING HOURS WILL BE EXTENSIVELY SHORTENED FOR AT LEAST A FEW MORE WEEKS

 

Best news I’ve received so far this week… My one and only class on Monday has been cancelled for the coming week. Which means… unofficial holiday. Which also means… extra time to do my stuffs. But doesn’t mean… that I have more time to sleep or waste away. Interesting…