Tomorrow will be my 2nd last paper, which is Microbiology. Last paper would be on Saturday, Endocrinology. Seriously speaking, I've been studying until I feel like banging my head on the wall, jump out of building, crying....etc.
我真的读都有哭也有死。
Meaning: I really study until I wanna cry and also wanna die.
Yeah...I'm trying to learn up my Mandarin/Chinese (I read in Cantonese also, not only Mandarin..hehe)
Anyways, in a way, I'm glad that finals is coming to an end. BUT.... I'm absolutely horrified about tomorrow. How do I put in 9 chapters of information into my head in 1 day?? Near impossible.... Tomorrow will be the no sleep day. The first no sleep day that I will have during finals throughout my Uni period...till now that is.
Note: I might make headlines by getting into a car accident due to insufficient sleep.
Actually, truthfully, study week wasn't fruitful for me. I got addicted to watching 家好月圆 (Moonlight Resonance). IF you have the time, please watch it. Teaches us young minds the meaning of family ties, bonds and relationship. Till the time when exams started, I'm still caught up in following the episodes. Mom's fault...got me addicted to it. Terrible... =p
Since I'm blogging to "release" my stress, I wanna say that TNB subcontractors are IDIOTS!! Middle of the night fix street light until scratch my car. A nice deep scratch. Really wanna sue them... damage my car, ruin my mood to study, might lead to me failing, destroy my future. See how bad it can be??!! Okay... I'm exaggerating. But my poor car... sigh....
I kind of look forward to holidays now. KIND OF. I've got SRC work to catch up on, my own work to do, get ready for industrial training, holiday. You sort it out on your own which ones I look forward to and which ones I don't. I've only got 2 weeks to settle them all. I initially thought I had 3 weeks. Apparently not. It'll be another week of cramming in activities and work to do. Pfft!! Yeah...this is MY HOLIDAY.
And so, this little lady has to get back to her studying, brain burning activities again.
Adrenaline pump up, have to Gambate, perlu terus berusaha dan belajar, 又有加油了....err, don't know how to say in Tamil.
The exam week streak continues. Actually its only been 3 days after my 1st paper. I'm still in no mood for finals.... =( Definitely not a good sign....possibility of failing is superbly high now.
Despite all my rantings, I did manage to finish up 3 chapters of Clinical Biochemistry. I'm seriously dense now but I hope it remains there till Saturday where I will just vomit out whatever information I'm keeping. (FYI: not literally vomitting out) Those who read as much as I do, you'll get what I mean.
Although I was concentrating and studying the whole day today, my thoughts are still flying off somewhere else. I keep pausing and trying to get back on track...FOCUS!! But they still wander off somehow after a period of time. Guilt fills me....trust me. Trying my best and yet what I'm doing is not my best and I know it. Level of disappointment is rising again....
I'm actually missing that one particular moment and time, which is not suppose to happen.
Can't wait till finals are over and get busy with SRC work once again and industrial training. Need to get my mind off things. Yeah....if you've noticed or known me for quite a while, you'll notice that I like to be a workaholic when I have things on my mind. Just a bad habit... a very bad and unhealthy habit.
Who has a way of brain washing me into studying??
A new Samsung P2, full touch screen mp4 player that plays music and videos of course. You can view photos in them also. And... I can make calls through this little gadget of mine by connecting it to my phone through bluetooth. Hehe!! Probably has more functions, I just haven't found out yet. Well, its finals period and studies first. So it's still in the case, untouched and brand new still, awaiting me to keep it company when I'm done with finals. Hahaha!!!
Yes...you can see how sleek and shiny it is that you can see the reflection of my phone. Hehe! (it's not on by the way if you're wondering) And so...this is my other baby (apart from my keyboard). Have to get PROTECTION for my baby soon.
Okay...back to studying already. But first.....sleep. We'll talk study tomorrow =p
This is the middle of the study week. Study/revision progress is....still a blunder. But nevertheless, still making the effort and going the extra mile...sort of.
I actually wanted to moan here about how sad and how pityful I am doing my revision. Then, I changed my mind =P
Although I've got things to moan about, but I've decided to spare my blog from them...for the moment. So yeah...this was just another meaningless post to waste your time =)
With all the tests and quizes out of the way, preparation for finals is finally here. The test today was horrible...horrigible I tell you. Don't know how else to explain it already.
So, everyone is prepping up for the finals. Crucial moment. All the last minute work, studying and revision. This is when the pressure really builds up. Plus, my finals timetable this time is totally screwed. So I'm being prepared to go crazy in the last moments.
After the test today, I'm pretty much relaxed. I HAVE to relax or not I'll just go bonkers. Am already lack of sleep. Mental retardation on the way. I somehow feel like I'm getting stupider by the day. Everything that I read, seems like some greek to me. Either that or I'm just really tired to be able to absorb anymore of those stuff.
And all of a sudden, mom hit me with a question. I'm not going to reveal what was the question, but, it got me to open my eyes big and wide eventhough I'm feeling so lethargic and tired now. Currently, I'm still unable to answer. Still weighing the situation with no luck of going anywhere.
I seriously have no idea whether to say that today is a sort of unlucky day or what. I was on my way back from uni like few hours ago at around 11.45pm. Out of nowhere, there was a police road block. Guess what? I was asked to pull over. To my understanding and from what I remember, I did not speed or break any road laws. So I had no idea why they stop me. The first thing the policeman told me was that I was driving 93km/h...which is not true, I was driving 80km/h. Then he asked me "so, nak bantu tak?". Truthfully, I didn't know what he meant. But after the 2nd time he asked me the same question, I know that it meant bribery, corruption, transaction course...whatever. So I just acted blur and asked him to issue the summon...yeah, stupid I know. I'm anti-corruption for your info. Hehe... I guess the dude must have felt bad...or, he's so impressed with me being anti-corruption, and he asked me to drive off without giving me a summon. So yeah... hahaha... It helps to be blur in times like this.
Us again
This is my roomie, the Taiwanese girl. You can see how small size she is that I have to bend down. Haha...but she's cute.
I don't know if you can see him. Haha...he's gonna kill me for this. This is Abdi, he's a Kenyan.
This is my discussion group (environmental responsibilities). We have Malaysian, Singaporean, Kenyan and Indonesian.
Us from bus 2. *forgive my sleepiness*
Me, Yi Ning with Grace. We were in Rumah Hope doing charity by spending time with the kids. 
This is Eric (Singaporean), Jie Ying and May.
Me and Rufus
Us in KLCC with one of the security guard. We were trying to convince him to arrest our dear participants who were lying down on the floor. Yes, in the middle of KLCC!! Initiated by UTAR's own Tjun Kong. Unfortunately, it didn't work.
And for the last day of the event; before, during and after dinner.....
Next to me is Zhao Long who is a China citizen but is studying in Hong Kong at the moment. And far right is Emily, my roomie again.
Yung Tat (committee), me and Yi Ning
Albert (Indonesian Chinese), me and Yi Ning
Us with Christine and Adam from the organizing committee
My Guardian Angel...in the angel and mortal game. I feel so bad cause he had to tip toe to be of the same height as me for this pic. Haha...
My mortal, Jia Xian...he's the treasurer for this event by the way. And our common interest....tennis. Hehe
Me and Janice
Me and Will (committee)
Abdi, Felicita and mua
Teik Chuan
Conrad
And of course, not forgetting, my own UTAR student reps
Tjun Kong
Chi Wei
So, I consider this trip a fruitful one although I came back with somethings in mind. Haha... I noticed a lot of things as well during this period of time, evaluate and reevaluate some things, and at some point got myself into a confused state. Haha... And I learned...to have a "diplomatic" smile...a standardise one. It's essential. Haha...
It's back to the mundane life once again with lots of work to be done. Actually there's a test in a few hours time and I'm still able to blog. The life of being busy once again.
