heaven knows

Finally got my biochem report done, obviously coz it's due tomorrow. After all the delays, finally managed to get it done. So, decided to drop some stupid nonsense inside here.



Had a sudden heartburn. Like really painful one. Seems to be more frequent nowadays. Hmm....as a Biomedical Science student, I seriously have no idea. There's lots of reasons that could lead to that. But now...I have no idea what is it >< There goes all the studying...For all I know, I could drop dead tomorrow. =D But, dead or alive doesn't matter much now...

Questioning everything that revolves around at the moment...

Looking for me babes Jini now. Hehe. Got to get away from not being myself for that little bit of time...

The very few of my soups plus white wine. Yeah, they serve white wine there. So, I just took what was there. Hehe.

I don't really know how to describe this. It's seafood in miso soup. Lol.

Cold feeling...

Haha, I just decided to take some nonsense picture.

I realised that my faithful camera in my phone is starting to malfunction. It's not auto-focusing anymore. *cries* Time to get a new phone?? But no money...*cries again*

Anyways, life's been busy with assignments nowadays. Hardly take my eyes off the computer cause I'm doing it day and night. Eyes always tired and major fatigue problem. On top of all that, some people just have to push me as though I'm not busy enough. I don't mind rushing to complete the work, but when that person who rushed me gives me some crappy and low quality work in return, it just gives me a bad impression all over again. Yes, I more or less have a little perfectionist quality in my work and assignment. I can't stand people giving me s*** as their part of the group assignment and call it done. And, I truly agree with Chia that when you rush someone to finish their work, make sure that yours is up to par in the first place. Lesson learned on who to group with in the future for group assignments.

I just don't feel like celebrating nuts this year.

Ok. First task as SRC, hand in your short speeches on monday in uni so that I can send to the head of DSA. But...even that is damn f***ing hard to do. Most of the committees were cooperative. But some weren't. Some didn't even bother to reply me. At the end of the day, I sent the email with 8/10 of the speeches at 10.15pm yesterday. On top of that, I got delayed in doing my work because of that. Bottom line is...not enough sleep again = headache again. And now, I just saw the nice reply from the DSA officer noting that I'm not diligent. Serious WHAT THE F**K!!! I got the notice for the speech on Sunday evening and was expected to hand in the following day. Frustrated...because I need to take in the blame for the whole committee.

I need a drink...no...more like drinkS

Endocrinology quiz tomorrow. And I still have the time to blog. Wtf.

In comparison to metabolic biochemistry, it's not that bad. From the name of metabolic, it sounds bad already. Oh what the heck. Need to live with it anyways. Memory, strength and whatever nonsense, don't fail me now. Flu building up. Head feeling heavy. (@.@)

I need a lobotomy. Don't know what a lobotomy is or does? Go look it up. Lol. I'll guaranttee you sickness till your stomach feels it.

I just wanna say.....THANK YOU LORD!!!!! I got into Putrajaya Hospital for my industrial training placement. One of the newest and advanced hospitals around. Plus, I got into the Pathology department. =D One of the best news I've heard so far. I seriously thought I didn't stand a chance at all judging that my results are....average (sad to say). But, that aside, I still am grateful for getting in. The best part is, I got in on my own effort. No "backdoors", people connection and stuff like that to help me get in. Momentary happiness. Lol. Really looking forward to the training now. Hehe.

~wish you could see this and be proud

SRC election is....a big mess. Rules and regulations, this can't be done, that can't run. Why make life so hard? In the end....the chair position left one person uncontested. In some ways, good, and in some ways, bad. Level of patheticness is overwhelming. Just downright unbearable.

To sum things up for the moment...life's like S.H.I.T. It's sucky at this point where the work never stops and problems keep arising one after another. I need a break. A long one where I'll just sit and rot and die. I have every intention of jumping off the SA building. Wanna hit barcelona and drink till liver damage and dance till I drop.

I have this principle where hate is a strong word....but, what the heck, here goes.

I hate the fact that you're not around
I hate that I can't talk to you when I'm down
I hate that it came down to this
This is so not my wish.
I hate that I can't turn back time
To make this right, to make things fine

I wish I could, but I just don't have the power to do so...

In need to vent out frustrations and jump off a cliff.

Next up is the SRC elections. For one, I never thought of being part of it. And now, I sort of am. So what do I do? Maybe yell out "vote for me, vote for me". I seriously can't imagine doing that and I hope I can minimize whatever need there is to do that. As a personal view, I thought the SRC was suppose to a body of students fighting for the rights and privillages of the students. And what I see now is some political stuff going on. People wanting to be a part of the limelight but not wanting to be part of the work. So where does that leave the work? Maybe the word commitment doesn't have a big impact to people nowadays or it could have just been interpreted wrongly in their dictionary.

A weird kind of insomnia has hit me the past few days. I keep waking up from my sleep and the actual fact is that I'm tired. The weird part is, even for that brief moment when I'm asleep, it's just equivalent to not sleeping at all. Lots of stupid and unnecessary things occupy my mind. This idiotic incident has definitely taken its toll on me. Apart from feeling tired and my brain is barely functioning, things just got to snap in front of my face when I least need it to.

I need a dose of PEACE in everything.

I....am stuck in studying. Grr...

So many assignments, so many things to read. (O.O)

Stuck in doing my Clinical Biochemistry report. Stupiak!

Sudden craving for sushi.

In need of some sort of entertainment.

Watched Kungfu Panda. It takes a lot to be awesome-ly funny. In this case, its rather easy cause of Po's big belly and flabby arms and big butt.

Want to scream and show temper. (craziness)

Want to lose weight badly but no determination. Sigh.

Want to just drop dead on the floor and die.

In conclusion, we have....
continuous studying + frozen brain = craziness + random ranting *faints*

I seriously and desperately want a...











Sony NWZ-A726
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Tiring weeks. Not enough sleep. Uni + events + Frasers = crazy tiredness


I was in Frasers for the weekend for Church Camp. It was good. Finally got a chance to just relax and enjoy a bit compared to Singapore. I went up on Friday, after class and we left late actually. Suppose to leave Subang at around 6.30pm but we left at 8pm. So, it was pitch black when we reached the foot of the hill. And...the expected happened. I got car sick. The really serious kind. Total GG. It was fine until my friend started going faster cause it was kind of late and we wanted to reach the top as soon as we can. There was a couple of times that we nearly went off the road and would probably have fallen off the cliff and make the headlines for the next day. It'll probably write: "Unsatisfied student committed suicide by going off the cliff in Frasers, compliments of UTAR" The moment we reached the hill, I couldn't even get out of the car on my own. Had to be carried out of the car. So yeah, it was bad. And an effing leech got to my finger when I opened my suitcase. So me and my roomie had a screaming session on the first night that I was there.


I got to go jungle trekking there. Saw leeches again!! Played netball there as well and I was deemed too tall. The aunties kept blocking me from the ball. One things for sure, there's a lot of BUGS in Frasers especially at night. It's irritating in a way when the bugs start flying around during night service. During the one of the night service, a stupid lizard fell on my lap. And guess what? It looked up and stared at me. WTF. Obviously, another screaming session and I sweeped it away. Hate lizards.


FEStival just ended yesterday. Our prayers were answered and it did not rain the whole day although it almost did. Truly great. Did a lot of running around under the hot weather. Think I'm darker now. Lol. Although we had lots of complication with the sponsorships and the transport and all, I personally think it went very well and it was a success. And I bet the whole committee agrees as well. We got bad comments from some people and got good comments from our own campus students. For those who think the event was bad, all I got to say is, try organizing it and you'll feel our pain and pressure throughout the whole process. It was definitely an eye opener to this kind of event and how tough it is to run things and to get things running.



After a day of running around, all the committee went crazy on stage after the closing ceremony. Haha. Unfortunately, no photos to be uploaded for the time being. I have to do some stealing from people to get them later. Hehe.

I'm starting to feel the pressure of this semester already although its only the 2nd week. (@.@)
I'm song leading tomorrow. Hope my voice sustains till tomorrow.