heaven knows

Just got back from cell. Feeling uncomfortable... health wise and in another aspect as well. Uncomfortable about some things... but once again... gonna keep it in. Pastor asked me why I look sleepy and uneasy everytime... how to answer? Just said I'm tired... can't say much. How to say that I'm uncomfortable with some things? Can't say it out... so better to just swallow it in. Oh, me going to learn drums soon. Finally. After so long of wanting to learn drums. Hope I can manage and have the "beat sense" and don't wind up sounding or playing spastically.

So tonight... I pray... like how I do every night... just pray...