heaven knows

Just got it back home and out of the car. Luckily my car fit, was contemplating whether it would fit in my car and also thank God I wasn't driving the kelisa. As you can see, there's a penyibuk lying down there.

Upon opening it. Ahh....the joy of looking at it.

After setting up the power supply and all. Haven't set up the stand yet then. So it was on the floor, of course, with something cushioning it at the bottom.

And yeap, thats all for now for my precious. I fully tested it out today. Now I have to get back to the books again. Dreadful...will play with my keyboard again tomorrow morning. =D

One of the dreaded papers is done! I barely slept the night before as usual to study for Anatomy. Seriously panicked cause my eff-ed up memory always fail me. Therefore, I just studied all I could with little sleep. Like really little. And so, the facts and stuff were all in my head. I'm like going to be some super anatomy freak now. Then....before going into the hall, some fellas were reciting, I repeat, RECITING some of the facts in front of me. And if you know me well enough, I prefer to keep quiet before entering the hall for this kind of reading subjects so that the facts will stay put in my brain for later usage. So all I could say to those people were, "oi, shut up la. don't confuse me with some other nonsense la." Haha...I know I sound mean. But under this circumstances, no choice. The last thing you need before sitting for this sort of paper is for someone to act smart and feed you wrong facts to confuse the hell out of you. So yeah.

Thank God, the paper is over. The most dreaded paper of all is coming next monday and I'm sure everyone will die for it. Few days to study and I don't know whether it will help or not. Will enter panic mode again probably on Sunday morning. But for now, I'll sit back, relax and study like crap for Biochem because it's gonna be a big time bitch on monday.

And...I'm getting my keyboard today!!! Happiness....

Sudden interest in Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., Baptist minister and a civil right activist. His quotes are awesome and powerful.

I've only had approximately 4 hours of sleep and am currently in deprivation of it. Tonight's gonna be the same.

I'm officially missing....my gals and my soon to be keyboard although I haven't bought it yet. XD See the severe addiction to it??

Still got lots more to go. Counting down to the last paper. Days got to go by faster now. Can't wait till its over and then it will be the start of another semester of tragedy and crap-o-logy.

Am currently hooked onto Paramore songs. They truly rock!!! Ahh...wanna do back my red highlights. Lol... And I got to lose weight. Damn it.

I seriously need a job now. =(

Tragedy!!! Next paper is Anatomy and Physiology and I haven't finished studying by more than half the syllabus. *faints*


Anyways, I'm getting distracted by the thoughts of finally getting a keyboard. Yesh, I'm gonna play piano again. Although I will show severe rustyness. Got my eyes set on the awesome and cool looking Yamaha KX8. But....they don't have it here in Malaysia yet. Even if I were to order it from overseas and have it shipped in, it would cost me more than 3.5k. Sad...

Now, I'm resorting to getting the Yamaha P70. Lesser functions but it should be alright for normal playing purposes. Have yet to actually go to the showroom to take a look at it. But, I will get it right after my last paper. Hehehe... Can't wait.

The coming month of May is a month filled with loads of activities and work. Orientation, FEStival, Singapore trip....and that about all takes up almost all the days in my May calendar this year. Lol...Amazing. Nevertheless, thou shall spend loads of time with my soon to be precious...my keyboard. Hahahahahah....

And...another update. I have FINALLY been promoted to 2nd Dan black. Yes!! I passed my grading which I sat last saturday. But obviously it came at quite a heavy price. My right ankle and knee is as good as gone. The pain can't and won't go away. Aihs...but...important thing is I passed. Haha...

Heard this song on the radio yesterday. This songs reminded me of my gals =')

Gals...remember this song??

I can't remember when you weren't there
When I didnt care for anyone but you
I swear we've been through everything there is
Can't imagine anything we've missed
Can't imagine anything the two of us cant do

Through the year, you've never let me down
You turned my life around, the sweetest days I've found
I've found with you ... through the years
I've never been afraid, I've loved the life weve made
And I'm so glad I've stayed, right here with you
Through the years

I cant remember what I used to do
Who I trusted whom, I listened to before
I swear you've taught me everything I know
Can't imagine needing someone so
But through the years it seems to me
I need you more and more

Through the years, through all the good and bad
I knew how much we had, I've always been so glad
To be with you ... through the years
It's better everyday, you've kissed my tears away
As long as its okay, Ill stay with you
Through the years

Through the years, when everything went wrong
Together we were strong, I know that I belonged
Right here with you ... through the years
I never had a doubt, we'd always work things out
I've learned what loves about, by loving you
Through the years

Through the years, you've never let me down
You've turned my life around, the sweetest days I've found
Ive found with you ... through the years
Its better everyday, you've kissed my tears away
As long as its okay, Ill stay with you
Through the years!

Alright...enough emo-ing already. Back to studying again...exam in a few hours time.

Finals have finally kicked off for us Biomedical Science students.

Yesterday was a total disaster. I'd like to call it jinx day. Sway to the max!!!
First of all, I left the house a little earlier cause dad got up early and started nagging me bout leaving early and all. No big deal...so I left early. And mom was like..."ate breakfast already or not? got take your vitamins? got take your bottle?". Yeah...sounds like I'm mummy's little girl still right? NOT!!! Moving on...the usual Summit jam. It normally takes me 1 turn of traffic light to get out of the Summit jam. But this time, it took me 3 turns. 15 minutes backed up. So I speeded a little (about 130-140km/hr...lol). The usual places which would be jammed, wasn't jammed. And then....the place which normally doesn't get jammed up, freaking got JAMMED!!! Reason: accident and everyone slowed down to look although the road is huge, wide, whatever.

All throughout my journey to uni, my stomach was playing games with me big time. And trust me, it's not pleasent especially when you're rushing for exam. I got to uni sharp 9am and my paper is at....9am. Great...and I went to the wrong block. GG-fied. I ran like nobody's business to the other block which is on the other side of the uni. Altogether, I was 15 minutes late for my paper. I wrote at super high speed like no one has ever seen before. Plus my brain malfunctioned a little due to all the rush and stomach discomfort. And it was english paper....crap. Bad start to this finals.

As for now, I'm feeling totally stressed. All kinds of stress that you can think of, except stress incontinence which means pee-ing (dripping more like it) involuntarily under stressful conditions. Crap...too much anatomy and physiology. All this because I realise that I've got 9 chapters to cover in 3days. Absolutely fantastically great is the stupidest craziest way. Mathematics for Bioscience is up next tomorrow. Hope nothing SWAY gonna happen again. Cause it's MATHS!!! I need the A. The whole estimation and hypothesis testing better not screw me up.

Got to get back to being a bookworm, nerd, whatever for now...

It's finals week people. And I still lack the darn determination that I should be having. My study break week was highly NOT productive. I spent a lot of time sleeping and doing other things instead of studying. Crap. I'm facing the possiblity of failing some subjects this semester and its not good. Sigh...

2nd dan grading is finally over. Waiting for results now. It'll be out tomorrow night. *crosses fingers* Thanks to fishy and Chan for coming to see me show severe rustyness. Did all I could for the grading till my body almost broke down when I finished. Thank God it didn't. Praying hard to pass now....

And...its back to the books again. Life revolves only around my books now. How pathetic.

Due to severe brain damage from studying Metabolic Biochemistry, I decided to crap out here.

If I could..., I would...
if i could be an international tennis player, i would
if i could travel the world everyday, i would
if i could get a job as a bed quality tester, i would
if i could save all those poor animals on the street, i would
if i could eat like there's no tomorrow and never grow fat, i would
if i could be some super intelligent person, i would
if i could get myself to study 24 hours everyday, i would
if i could prove a theory that says 1+1=11, i would
if i could prove that studying shrinks the brain, i would
and lastly...
if i could stop crapping, i would...be able to get back to my books XD

Yes people...this is the level of craziness I'm currently in.

Anyways, do you know that if you study a reading subject while you're doing business in the toilet, you would actually be able to absorb a lot of stuff. And I do mean a whole lot of stuff. Including toilet stuff. It's true. Of course, you have to aromatize your toilet first before using it and after using it. It's more advisable. You think about nothing but your "business" and what you are reading. Nothing else to bother you but "toilet sounds".

Finals is in a week's time. OH NO!!! Tragic. I have to study like crazy now for industrial training. Sigh....the signs of no life-ness. Scared mode now because of finals. No confidence. How to score a CGPA of minimum 3.0 for my course?? Can anyone tell me? Frustrated....

Cry
I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give it to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
All my life...

Back to the saddest part of life....studying on a sunday. All the best to those whose finals are coming soon; Grace, Pei Ying and a few others.

Getting fat, fatter and soon going to be the fattest of them all. *bwah!!!* The fatness is overwhelming now and it's strong....it's taking control. NOOOOO!!!!!!!!

Biostatics and Differential calculus is driving me nuts. Like really nuts... Got back my maths coursework marks just now. Hmm...don't know what to say but I guess my marks is ok....for me at least. Anatomy test 2 results was a disappointment. Effects of loafing around and going out till late at night the night before the test. Less is needed to say about Metabolic Biochemistry results. I don't want to know about it.

Just the thought of people planning to drop out of my course is rather scary. Proves that not everyone can cope with it. I'm....trying.... Need to get pass it no matter what.

Tomorrow is the start of Orientation Committee of May '08 meeting. Nervous at how I'm going to perform as a leader. ><

Metabolic test 2 is done, over, kaput, finito. YES!!! But now here comes the worse...finals. Anyways, I'm happy enough, for today at least, that the test is over. So many days of sleep deprivation. I practically die-ded when I got home after the test today. I only had like 1 to 2 hours max of sleep last night. Zombie....zombie.... I have sufficient energy now to last me the night. And tonight has to be beauty sleep night.

Was cramming and killing myself with biochem yesterday, even in uni. I expected to do badly for my biostats cause I did rather badly for the first test. So, I was prepared....not going to let the stupid results ruin my mood and so called determination to study for biochem. Then...results came. Oh no!!!.... Lecturer looked at my marks, then look at me and said "well done, very good". *dot dot dot* swt....blur.....oh....I got 35/40!!!! Fulamak!!!! Happiness....muahahahahaha..... Lecturer commented that I'm most probably the 2nd highest in class. =D I shall do the same for finals.

FEStival meeting took up a lot of my time yesterday, but it was fun. Get to know some new people. And yeah peeps. For the upcoming semester, UTAR FES Setapak will be having our FEStival. Please come over and enjoy yourselves. Bring your friends and uni mates, collegemates, whatever. Entrance is free of course. There will be games, food, performances and fashion shows.
So please come!!! =)
You can get the location of UTAR from me if you don't know your way. Hehe...

Look at the time people!! Haha...

Yup. It's 4 freaking am in the morning and I'm up hitting my books. Not only because I have a test this thurs, but also finals is up in about 3 weeks time >< I'm so not ready. My biological clock is totally turned over. Most of the time sleeping at around 9.30pm or 10pm and waking up at 1am or so to start studying. And I'm DEPRIVED of my precious sleep!!! Panda look...panda look. I really need to suck it up for the next 1 month.

So for those people whom I didn't reply when you guys messaged me on msn at night, now you know why. Haha... I'm so sorry.

My anatomy test is over today, or technically yesterday. It was a bitch. Although I sort of studied, but it still comes down to GG-ness. Plus 2 hours of sleep...total bitch. My brain couldn't process anything after the test. Fantastic eh?

Rights. Need to "bond" with my books now.