heaven knows

It has been confirmed. After the approximately 1 month of sucking it up. I've finally crashed. Can't say that I've slept for the past few weeks. Appear to be sleeping but mind is not asleep. With things that come along the way, I just suck it up. Take it in and swallow it down. Now it has finally decided that it's time to CRASH....hard. And the feeling is DAMN SHIT!!!(forgive me Lord) Head burned and ached very badly today like it did last time. Haven't had it for such a long time and it's back. The thoughts are stubborn. It refuses to budge. Internal war....

Wishing for things that are impossible. Unable to say things that I really mean and feel. It's just a plain dead end. Seek comfort in the cold lonely darkness once again...