Steamboat = watery eyes
Yeap. Me and Pris were like squinting most of the time just now during dinner, even when we were looking at each other. Thanks to the steam from all the steamboat. Eyes pain. Plus we couldn't rub our eyes. Man... I can still feel the burning sensation now.
Didn't manage to spar today. But Vy and Pris got to. And...I'm so proud of Pris!! Haha...Vy and I know why.
Walked into class this morning late. And I offered to help my sir with the admin but he said it's ok, he can do it. So I thought for the first time I wouldn't need to do admin. But later in his car while we're on the way to another class, came the "wonderful" question: "Pearly, I need you to handle Seafield's account and USJ4's account". Hah!! Just when I thought I escaped. But doesn't matter to me anyway. I don't mind doing it I guess.... According to my sir, it'll be more systematic when either me or Vy do it. So...what the heck.
Journey to 2nd Dan begins again. Don't know if my knee can last till that long, but I'll try. Quite sad that I'm still stuck in 1st Dan.
End of a long day. Another long day to come in just a few hours. And I need to get some work done in this few hours time....
What a pathetic week. pfft! It's a constant run without stop. I'm losing it...I'm losing it. Major brain malfunction.
But surprisingly I managed to answer a question or two....hmm...... Still losing it. Sigh....
The message or better known to us as His words, spoke very clearly to me today. And it hit me where it hurts the most. Can't help but to agree that it's true. But I'm trying very hard now.
Body condition deteriorating....
Loads of work to be done.
I walked into a toilet in uni today that has the sign "ROSAK" written on the main door. But I didn't bother cause I just wanted to wash my hands. But when I looked into the mirror, I thought I saw a ghost. Seriously...I couldn't recognise myself. I look....literally dead. No joke... I sort of have a lifeless expression or face now. What next...???
Going to work it all out tomorrow. To the max....
Back from the dinner and not feeling too good. Shiatz man. Stomach feeling weird...weird.....
Still no mood to do my maths and my biochem report. Why la?? Why la?? And I know I'm in a rush against time some more. Mind problem already.
I need something....someone..... I can't do it.
I need to wash n clear out my brain...it's not functioning.
What a week. Rushing report and assignments. It's just a bad 2nd week and it's going to be worse. This week is probably going to be one of the worse I'm going to have so far. Have to rush Biochem report, Anatomy report and english report. And I haven't even got started on my maths tutorial which is tomorrow. Sigh... No time to breathe. Lack of sleep. Trying to catch up with things going around. It's moving too fast.... or maybe I'm just not effecient enough.
With friends from overseas being back, I'm hardly in the house. Hardly around for dinner and lunch. This would be the first for me.... but it's kind of fun at some point. Appreciate the time that they're back here as much as I can before life becomes sad again. Anyway it's already kind of sad.
I got.....bitten by a big red ant on my ankle last wed. And it swelled up overnight and itched like crap. It still itches now and it's darn irritating. The skin around the stupidly small bite is looking blue-black and it's been like that for days!! When is the thing going to go off?! And I thought squeezing the white blood cells out would help. Crap...
Was walking around pyramid yesterday evening despite me rushing my work. Mom went and look at some bed sheets. And I saw this super cool and cute looking thing..... I want!!! And I got it. Hahaha....It was this.....
My big bone bean bag that is so comfy to sleep on. Mom got it for me after much pestering from me. Hehe....
Sigh...lots of work to be done. I wanna.... I wanna....... =( After looking at so many histology slides through the microscope.... I need eyemo (think that's how you spell it). By the end of this sem, eyes gonna be retarded. So will the brain...
miss my piggy so much....aihs.....
Yeap. The KL tower is awfully close. You can never see it this close unless you're at the KL tower itself. This place is overlooking the whole of KL I would say. And we're so high up that we were wondering whether it was fog or haze that surrounded the buildings around. So that about concludes the night. Went out to drink with an empty stomach, with effects. So got to sleep now.
Am feeling rather sick....
Man...what a bad start for the post. Haven't really been feeling too well for the past few days. Sudden diarrhea. God knows why cause I don't. And for some reason, my nose started to get blocked tonight and my eyes are starting to swell. And I still have to read up my lab manual before hand first. Sigh.... These are the days of uni.
I watched Saw IV. For those who don't know what movie that is, it's a seriously sick and sadistic movie. PY will love it cause there's lots of blood everywhere. The movie talks about this sadistic killer that thinks he's doing good by punishing criminals and those that don't appreciate their own life. Hmm... pretty brutal I would say. You'd be surprised by the numerous ways those fellas come up to kill people. More like ways to make people get themselves killed. Make sense? It's sadistic but....you got to give them credits for being so darn innovative. At least I know I couldn't have thought of that.
Argh... busy day tomorrow. Whole day ahead of me who's barely going to get sleep. How great is that? Wonder whether I can sleep in Pengajian Malaysia. Hmm... I'll see how.
Thank God for no saturday class in my timetable this sem. Finally went back to teaching taekwondo once again. Makes me feel rather old being around all the school students....and yeah, I'm referring to secondary school fellas. Started off teaching the newbies today and I was told by my instructor that I have to be more aggresive in my teaching. Sigh... After teaching for a bit, I was....tired. Knee couldn't really take it. Disappointment again!! Do I have to put a knife into my knee to be doing taekwondo again?? My God... why now?
Was halfway studying last night when I received a message and my brain instantly froze. Tried very hard to resume studying but my brain was seriously not functioning at all already. Fits exactly to the term...brain dead. Sigh...have to put in extra hours tonight to catch up. But I'm quite relieved to hear the good news today. Really relieved...
Now...back to the books....
Almost the end of the first week of 2nd semester. Feels different to be back in uni. Finally got my parking sticker. Now I can proudly drive into campus. Lol.. No more parking far far away and risk getting summoned. It's going to be a busy and crazy semester. Wonder if I'm capable of catching up. Sigh...
Had a gathering in my youth pastor's place on sunday. Barbeque and all. Organized by me. Grateful it didn't rain at night. Think everyone had a great time, only the food wasn't really enough for those big eaters I guess. People got thrown into the pool again. Seems to be a tradition wherever there is a pool. Hmm...
Now after the Orientation is done, here comes the post mortem. Just had the post mortem meeting today. Discussed all the problems faced throughout the whole process and parts where we can improve on in the future. I got an offer to continue in RCM for the next semester as well as participate in SRC. Hmm.... not sure what to do yet. Still considering.
While typing out this post, I find myself to be seriously monotonous. I know why myself. I managed to watch a movie on astro just now entitled Comeback Season. It's a funny story but with very good meaning. Wish it could be that way.
I threw away something that I could never find back ever again
Finally, January Orientation 2008 is over. It ended today with the ice-breaking. Talk about getting wet... even flour was involved. Ultimate I tell you. Although there was little people, we made the best out of it. Everyone enjoyed it....I think. Semester has barely started and I already have people asking me to get involved in the May orientation as well. Hmm....I'll think it over. Getting involved again means sacrificing sleep again and having to look like a zombie again. Have to consider whether it's worth it or not. Or more like are the freshies worth it. Haha... Am feeling super lame now.
During the whole process of the January Orientation 2008, I've.....
- Fooled around during our meeting.
- Exposed myself to paperwork procedure.
- Looked like zombie.
- Had my physical strength put to the test....the maximum...
- Hung out in empty halls and just chill.
- Met new people, mostly seniors....all jokers.
- Wore full formal....including blazer.
- Danced like a fool around the stage when the ceremony is over.
- Got wet, got floured.
I've already agreed to join CF and am going to help make it 'alive'. Yup, massive recruitment when semester officially starts. But I really can't bring the Taekwondo Club to live. It's like super slow paced. I can't follow it... Not to mention my injuries. I can't even run up a stairs due to frequent knee lock. And it hurts like crap. Sigh....
Bummer. I think I did something stupid. I was staring at the number, imagining that I pressed called and said something. But....I actually pressed the call button by accident. And....I sort of blur for like 5-10 seconds. Omg... Think it became a missed call. Sigh... Stupidity kills man...
Hectic week throughout. Orientation just started. Few more days to go. Days passed me by. Christmas is gone, New year is gone. I don't know what to look forward to. In every event that I'm worn out and feeling deadly tired, my mind keeps circling around the same thing. I'm trying very hard to hold it back but I'm always defeated. Must it be this hard? I'm always going around the same question. And I never seem to get the answer.
I give up. I'm really giving up. Make up can cover a lot of things but it can't cover some things. If only it could. I'm so going to break my 1st new year resolution. I can't keep my attitude...continuously falling. I know where your heart lies now. I'm done...
Maybe when the pieces fit once more, I'll be able to smile again.
