This is what I call "Freak Week". Next week will be the same too. But I can't wait for wednesday. Hehe... 'Prawn behind the rock'. Anyways, I had my lab test on monday. Yeah, you read it right...LAB TEST. And no...we do not go around mixing stuff in this test. This is the very 1st time I've encountered station tests. It was freaky and crazy. Let me explain....
We have 10 stations. In each stations, we're given 1 minute to look at what we have to, either an anatomy model or histology slide, and answer the question that is sticked on the table. Then, when the bell rings, we have to move to the next station. So thats basically how it works.
Due to my laziness and sloth-ness, I didn't bother to prepare myself or read up the day before the test. And so, I took a chance and did last minute reading. Then, the lab assistant came to me and told me that last minute reading won't help me. Oh well, I did it anyway and I went into the lab for the test. At the end of the day....I got 13.5/20. One of the highest in class. Hah!!! I can safely say that I proved him wrong. But, 13.5 is still darn low.
Coming up next, maths test 2 this saturday. Stupid thing.... I shall score this time. I won't give in. Cis!!! And next monday....anatomy test 2. Oh no....!!!!! I haven't read anything. It's different for this one, last minute reading REALLY won't help. Gone....
Randomness......
I'm starting to wonder, what is wrong with people nowadays. I had one guy coming to ask me about Christ. And so, I tried my best to explain and stuff. He asked me to bring him to church for events and all. But....the main purpose of doing so was because of a girl. Eff man. It's a bloody insult to the church if I ever bring that fella there. And once again, I would like to say....STOP F***ING USE ME!!!
Second case. Another idiot made a statement saying, "save your prayers, your God doesn't exist here". And then, he added another statement, "how many of you have been to Heaven, seen God and lived to tell the tale?". Now what kind of a f***ing statement is that? It's either....1: you really want to get beaten up and die fast, or 2: you seriously want to get beaten up and die fast.
Now here's some tips. If you know nuts about what you're saying, don't say it. If you know nuts about the topic that you're debating on, then shut it. When a man of no faith speaks of God, all we hear is NOISE and DISTURBANCE. So save it, it adds to pollution.
Another thing is, I agree with Kel babe. Don't wear a cross if you're not a Christian. It's an insult to all Christians and Christ. Wear it if you know what it means and you stand for the same faith. Not for the sake of wearing it. Period.
Am stuck with a cacat-ed printer at the moment. A dot matrix printer. Omg. I shall persevere. The irritating sound. Grr...
I didn't know that the word "free to be used" is written on my forehead. What the heck. Stop using me!!!! I'm not blind to see it. And I won't bow down to it either. So stop pushing your luck!!!
Going old skool....
Although the song is old, but its so nice.
My cousin said....I'm fat!!! So sad... Immediate diet plan. Anorexia!!! *sob sob*
The goodness of holiday!!! Eventhough its for a day. Yeesh....
Although its only a day, but at least it gives me time to breathe and get a lot of work done. I think. At the beginning of this week, Chia told me something while we were in Anatomy lab....
Chia: "Pearly, you want to know something? We have anatomy lab test on the 25th, maths test on the 29th, anatomy test 2 on the 31st and metabolic biochem test on the 3rd. Isn't that GREAT?"
Serious swtness. He just had to remind me and make me panic. Yeah...as in panic. 4 tests in 2 weeks. Almost all reading subject. HELP!!!!!..... Haven't include the part where we have to do reports and tutorials still. ARGH...!!!!! No need to sleep already. Brain juice used up dry.
It's big, and its cute, its a cow and its called MUFFIN!!! Super adorable....*melts*
Somehow 'that' story depicts the one I used to be in and am still in. It's like watching a rewind of my own life. The only time it feels good was when I had everything. It doesn't feel good now. It seriously doesn't. Although I don't have some sort of disease or sickness or whatever (at least I think I don't have), the body is getting weaker by the day. I don't know how to overcome it. Trying my best to cover it all as it consumes me day by day. It's taking up my strength and I'm really left with none. God help me....
*swept away by the waves of emotions and dragged deep down under by those I call memories*
Informal english presentation today. And I talked about chocolates. And I had stomach discomfort due to indigestion from last night. Equals to GG-ness. So, I took a deep breath and started blabbing everything that comes through my mind because I did not really prepare myself last night. And....the verdict is..... the lecturer commented that my presentation was the best. Well, good enough for me no matter what. I did it against all odds.
Got disappointed in my maths results. So want to slap myself in the face. But....maths assignment interview went well. Me and team mate managed to crap our way through and have a high possibility of getting 20/25. Quite alright I would say.
After uni, hung out with jini babes. Got new shoes that I really liked and loved it at first sight. Satisfaction after all the stressing and studying and stuff. Was actually rather pumped up and happy.
Then.....
I got hit hard. Really hard.
Just got the news that the plan is canceled. Was so looking forward to it. Am not in the mood for anything....nothing. It's like this big wave that came and slammed me down. Yeah... being overly dramatic. I really don't know how to say it but it sucks!!!! Unless someone shows up and spends me on an all paid for shopping spree. I just want to scream, lash out everything, go crazy, jump off a building...everything....but I know I can't.
Uncontrollable, unstoppable, unbearable....please help me....
Election is over. And.... its a bloody mess now. People voting without thinking. Now we'll see what happens for the next 5 years. Peeps, be careful when you're out.
Am....highly addicted to the chinese show now XD Can't help it. Amidst all the work and stuff, I have to find some way to relax my dysfunctional brain. And...it's finally starting to work again. =D Hehehehehe....
Once again, the week is packed with presentation slides to be done, reports and studies. Nothing new...but a slightly new level of stress and tiredness.
I need a job. =( No money to shop shop shop. Sigh....saddest part. Friend has recently introduced me to a job...freelance job. Think I'll be starting soon and hope I can make the time to make the extra money. Yesh...am so in need of it now.
I'm having a sudden desire. Swt... I want my piano!!! And my laptop!!! And I freaking wanna change my phone. Hahahah.... Yeah, greediness...I know.
First biochem test is over. Don't know when the 2nd one is going to hit. It was a disaster!!! When reading the notes also wanna cry, do the questions also wanna cry. Sigh...
Right after test, I completed the 2 remaining assignments. It's done!! Finally...don't have to worry bout it anymore. Except for the presentations and the interview next week. And reports again. Neverending man....
At night (last night)...we hit Barcelona! It was good. Realeases all the stress. Despite only having 2 hours of sleep, I managed to survive the time there. But, I barely woke up in time for class today. And I became zombie the whole day today. Plus I forgot to take my assignments when I left the house, so I had to make a big turn to come back and take it....ended up 40mins late for class. Only during my 2nd lecture, I realised that I forgot to take my file that had all my notes in it as well. Great..It was right in front of my eyes on my table and yet I forgot to take it. Blindness... For my 2 hours break, I....slept in the library. Haha. I didn't even know what was going on during lab. Zombieness...
Rights. Need to feed this fat body of mine with food before going for cell later.
currently in brain dead mode.....
barely got sleep. zombie.....test is in 5 hours time. still stuck in the last chapter and still able to blog. good... *signs of craziness kicking in*
unable, incapable to think straight now. pathways, formulas, descriptions....eyes popping out soon, brain will pop out soon too.
Now...today....is the start of the burn oil night.
Test tomorrow. Gahh...!!! And I haven't finish reading yet. Not to mention understand and digest the info. Crap... 2 more chapters to go. **sob sob**
Looking forward to tomorrow....to destress in any way I can. Yes!!
Now...back to the notes. (@_@)
Edge of the freaking line.
Scenario:
Assignment in a group of 3 people. 2 girls and 1 guy. Both girls work almost throughout the nights with little sleep to find for information and articles to complete assignment. Guy does nothing and always comes back saying that he can't find anything...no information and no article. No effort from dude to contribute to GROUP assignment. Girls got stuck in ideas to put into the assignment. Asks dude for ideas. Dude gave some lame and crappy ideas which wasn't usable. Girls asked dude yesterday to go to computer lab together to help type out the assignment and complete it, and dude refused saying he wants to go back early. Both girls can't take it, decided to tell lecturer that the dude did nothing to contribute and request to be awarded individual marks instead of sharing the marks. Told the dude straight about that and dude decided to leave the group and do on his own. Repeat: do GROUP assignment on HIS OWN. On top of that, dude says that the girls betray him.
Now... please help me redefine the meaning of the word "betray". Which part of it looks like it? WTF man!!! I guess I have to correct the meaning of the word "betray" in my own dictionary.
Really hope that that fella reads this man. Fucking do your work and stop giving excuses la. Instead of having steamboat and party at your place with the girls everytime, do something la.
My world turning the wrong way now. "Dude" told his side of the story to my coursemates and now they're saying I went too far. I've got nothing to say. My conscience is clear....so damn clear. Dude told me he understand why me and my friend didn't want him in our group for group test previously. Seems to me now that HE doesn't....not even a bit, not at all.
Mom caught my uprage yesterday and was shocked cause all sorts of words was coming out when I heard that the dude wanted to withdraw from the group and that he blames me for betraying him.
AHHHH.....!!!!!! Frustrated.
What does it take to get these people off my back?? Is it that fun to be there?? Just give me a freaking break man. My main purpose is to study and get my degree. Not getting involved in some shitty politics again. So don't F***ING drag me into it!!!
The answer is...NO, I didn't say shit bout whoever. I'm too busy doing my assignments and burying myself in work and events. I don't have time to think and spread such nonsense. What is wrong with people nowadays? No better things to do is it? As if framing me last week wasn't enough. Go on, spread to the whole damn world about it. With all the work and assignments pressuring me, I don't need this right now. Enough!!
I'll walk my own road without anyone. Everyone happy?!
Tired.
It was a whole day thing yesterday. From uni, then rushing to come home and shower and fly to church for the event.
The event: Leaping Cupid, was a success I would say. Amazingly, the food was good. A 3 course meal for a mere RM 10. Where on earth would you get that?? Not to mention, fine dining plus getting to know new people. It was amazing. And no...I'm not part of the people to enjoy the whole fine dining thing and all. I was the background person a.k.a. committee a.k.a. waitress once again for the night. Hmm.....I didn't know that the committee was suppose to go around minggling with the "guests". I was asked (although I was busy running around making sure things were in place) to intro myself to the newcomers and have a little chat with them. I felt....weird and I'm sure the people I intro myself to felt weird as well. Maybe it's the way I intro myself cause I was like a mess and in a hurry to do things. Haha.... Oh well.
Had a four hour sleep interval last night....
Woke up early today to go for my so called part time "job"....taekwondo. Luckily I'm still able to sustain throughout the whole day. Whew!! My knee.....is giving way soon. Loose knee. And I think I either pulled or tore a thigh muscle today. Swt man.... Nevermind. Thou shall make myself fit no matter what by april. We had visitors from UniKL taekwondo team to join us for training today and there was suppose to be sparring after that. And I'm suppose to spar with the only black belt girl from that team which is a Malaysian fighter. I was prepared to go all out...break hand, break leg, whatever. But.... its as though my sir knew. He didn't allow sparring when he said he would last week. And to think that this would be the first time I would be able to go all out. Sad....
Argh!!! Still have to complete my assignments!!! Frustrated already. Plus I'm not ready for the test yet. I have no idea what to do now.... Am just blank. It takes me an additional 5 seconds to respond to people talking to me now cause my brain just can't process any non-science stuff.
Off to drown myself in work and crap again....~
