heaven knows

I'm back from the high lands called Camerons.


Wish I was still there. No...actually I literally wish I could live there. The air is good and it's cold. Life is simple and nice. I'm definitely going back there soon. Haha...

Note: Anywhere which is out of town, slow life, simple and serene, almost immediately captures me. =p

Once again, I got car sick on the way up. Don't ask me why. I just do. I was pale when we reached Brinchang. That's like one of the town areas in Camerons and it's somewhat near to the hotel I stayed in. However, this time I could get out of the car on my own unlike the time I went up Frasers at night. That was seriously crazy. My brother had to literally drag me out of the car.

So...Camerons doesn't have as much bugs as Frasers and they sure do not have LEECHES!! Haha... There's like strawberries everywhere. Oh God... it's like seeing red everywhere. At some point it was a bit annoying. Think they're over-publicizing the strawberries.

First day was not much. Reached up there around evening, so I didn't go to the farms and all. Just walked around town and see what's there. Went to the night market there and once again, strawberries everywhere. There's lots of vegetables and fruits also, and....flowers. The various colours of the roses and other flowers really makes me happy. So, I bought quite a bit of roses. They're only RM 11 for I think about 30 stalks of roses. Definitely can't get it here in KL. KL means chop chop for any sorts of flowers, unless you have a green thumb and you grow them yourself. All the way up there and my parents still buy durian to eat there. OMG... never ending durian craze. There's nothing much to do there at night. More of relaxing and enjoying the coldness there. Which is precisely what I want and what I need.

Second day... The morning air is really fresh. And cold!! There's no air-cond in the hotel room, only ventilation and the sliding door for the air to come in through the balcony area. The sliding door was not open, only the ventilation. And still it was darn cold. All my clothes was cold when I put them on, including my sweater. Aihs.... I had to wear 3 layer of clothes this morning just to so called survive the coldness. Yeah... my dad walked around in 3 quarter shorts. See the difference? The walk around the area and the farms confirms that.... I'm heading towards a serious level of fatness!! I was out of breath in like 20minutes of walk. What the.... This is madness.

Although I really enjoyed the trip, I have to suffer now to diet. *cries* My fatness is super obvious and embarassing. Can't take it... Going to go on a crazy exercise mode throughout holidays.

Oh...there's some pics too but I haven't load them into my comp yet. So I'll probably post them up later cause I'm still dead tired now. Can't really adjust back to KL heat.

This would be day 3 till day 5 of freedom combined =p

I finally took the time back to go swimming and to at least exercise a bit. Or else, I wouldn't want to imagine what the outcome would be if I did not do anything and remain being a couch potato. It'll be horrible!! And so, I'm determined to exercise more...meaning more sports, and also more chance of injury coming back again. Swt!! I suddenly feel old thanks to all my miserable injuries. Nevertheless, it shows that I've worked hard before for some things right? Haha...!!!

Apart from exercising, life's filled with sleeping, watching tv, going random shopping and "yum cha" sessions. Better than 24/7 studying and looking at the book. Bound to go crazy. Of course I enjoy sleeping the most. It's my all time favourite hobby. Can't help it...it's so good that it tempts me everyday. Simply irresistable (note: it is only resistable in certain circumstances).

Sigh... Some people ask me why don't I get to know who who who. Now let me make it clear once and for all. I would know you if you let me do so. If not, I wouldn't want to go through the trouble of TRYING to know someone who doesn't want to let me know anything. Rather ridiculous don't you think? I've been there and done that. So, I know how stupid and tiring it can be. Wasting time...

And... I do not like to be manipulated as well. You can bet your life that I know what's happening no matter how good you are in manipulation. You'll see the difference soon after...

The weekend is almost here. Time flies when I'm doing something and it seems to slow down when I'm just bumming around at home. Nice isn't it? And so, it flew down to the weekends already. I'll be heading for Camerons on Saturday and enjoy the nice air there unlike our nice city. And also to get away from the hectic city life. Everyone's always rushing here and there. Life's at such a fast pace although we're able to slow it down. So, it's time to slow it down for a day or 2. Wouldn't hurt right? Instead, it helps the human body, mind and soul. Hehe...

Today, I had a discussion with one of my girls about speaking English and the English accent of different people. I was once told that I'm not Malaysian because of the way I speak English and my accent. I'm telling you that I'm 100% pure Malaysian with China citizen blood ok? It's because I'm English based and those fellas are Chinese based. That's why I sound like some foreigner in Uni. Besides that, I'm a pure Malaysian.

I remember the 1st day that I stepped into Uni. I could barely speak mandarin. I could understand but getting words to come out of my mouth with the correct intonation is hardly and rarely. So it was quite difficult. But, I can speak more now. Haha... As compared to last time that is. And now, my English standard is fluctuating. When I'm in a semester, my England goes down the drain. When I'm on hols, my English becomes the foreigner English that people call it to be. And when I speak like that in Uni, people can hardly understand me. So yeah.... pfft!!

Ok. Tired of writing crap already....

WARNING: Content is filled with foul languages due to the fact that the author is awesomely pissed and is forced to resort to them to vent out anger. Hence, read at your own expense.

Note: In normal days, such vocabulary is non existent in author's dictionary. This is a special circumstance.

Day 2 of freedom....

Comm meeting today. Finalise some stuff, joke about and laugh at most of the stuff, discuss about some stuff and ignore some stuff too. Lots of things to do but at the moment doesn't seem like it. Wonder why...

After meeting, went for lunch with friends in KLCC. Our initial plan was to have lunch and go for a movie to de-stress. But...due to the fact that we ate our lunch then continued to sit there and talk, we lost track of time and didn't manage to catch a movie.

Anyways, after our random walking, we went back and found my friend's car tires punctured. 2 of them!! And it was obvious that it was deliberately punctured cause there was another car that was in the same situation as well. So, we tried making a police report and it didn't work. We went back to the car and tried to change the tires on our own and realised that we did not have enough energy to do so!! Sad... And so, we got a mechanic to get it changed.

While me and my friend were waiting for my 2 other friend to get the mechanic to come, the house owner of the house opposite our car came home. The idiot scolded us from inside his house compound that the space was HIS space and the stupid "palang" was there for a reason. Actual fact is that, the stupid "palang" was at the side of the road and did not show any sign that it was meant to reserve the space. So we just replied NICELY that we'll move the car once we get the tires fixed eventhough we know now that it's that idiot who punctured the tires. BUT....it wasn't enough for that idiot. He came out of his house, walked up to me and shout at me while asking if I had a problem with him. Not only once, but twice. The first phrase that came to my mind: "WHAT THE F***!!!". He kept shouting that we should know better than to park opposite people's house in a housing area. Now, tell me.... Is there a rule stating that you can't park opposite another person's house in a residential area?! And there is no f***ing rule stating that you can reserve the stupid parking space that you don't f***ing own with just a miserable "palang" either. The idiot then continued to say that if we don't move the car in 10minutes, he's going to call people to come and whack us. See how civilised Malaysians are?? We called the police straight and it went to the operator first. The brainless operator asked me if it was an emergency. Right after I said it was, she continued to ask me all sorts of question before telling me that she will connect me to the police headquarters. How f***ing stupid can you get that you do not understand the meaning of emergency?! So fine, patience got me to wait for a little while again before I started explaining all over again to the police. Right after I finished explaining, all he said was "OK" and then hung up the phone. See how f***ed up our Malaysian system and government servants can be??

At the end of the day, the a****** got away with it. I really have every mind to sue the hell out of him for threatening us. It's illegal for your information. It is because our system and law is so flawed in ways like these that makes most of the new generation leave this country. Even after coming home, my anger has not toned down even a bit. The thought of that situation really pisses me off badly at how unfair things can be. If we actually waited there and BELIEVED that the police will come, the 4 of us would've probably ended up dead by now. Thanks so damn much!!

From a happy day with friends, it became sour due to the existence of idiots like these.

I would never EVER trust my life in the hands of policemen EVER AGAIN. All these put together, explains why this country is still considered to have 3rd world mentality. Tell the whole word that you own the whole damn road while you're at it.

Okay...really high blood pressure already by just thinking about it. Hope YOU get what you deserve REAL SOON.

Day 1 of freedom...

I woke up late today but still managed to get myself to church. Enjoyed church very much today, especially the sermon. Really spoke to me. It reminded me that I've got things that needs changing. Quite a few things actually. Hmm....

After church, had a spontaneous and random karaoke session with Grace. We really sang our lungs out. Thankfully, my lungs aren't damaged yet. Haha...joking joking. Not that severe. But we did sing to release stress and also to fill time and dispell boredom of course. Nothing much at night though. Just stayed at home and finish watching Moonlight Resonance. Truly nice and heart warming =) So so touching!! Unfortunately, the series is over =( But it was a good show. Worth watching.

Hmm.... I need to find things to do tomorrow after meeting or else I'm going to bore myself to death. I just can't sit still at home if I'm not having exams. Seriously. I get agitated and frustrated. So, I need to find things to do. Can't afford to rot at home.

Well, it's 2.30am now and I'm not sleeping yet again. I'm going to be a zombie soon although it's past exam period. Don't know why I'm like that, so don't ask =p

Oh well...meeting once again...

This marks the end of the finals of Year 2 Semester 1. YES!! At last....freedom....for 2 weeks. Pfft!! Better than nothing...I'll take it. Hehe...

You'd think that the finals would have what I call a "smooth" finish or ending. But no.... it crash landed. The last paper was superbly, awesomely, incredibly and magnificently....idiotic, stupid, rubbish, miserable, mind and mood breaking. I do not wish to see that subject again. EVER. So, I hope that I get a reasonably decent grade for it although I know I wrote trash and junk in there which I don't know is usable or not. We'll wait and see when the results come out.

Don't want to think about exam subjects anymore. Throughout study week and my exam period, my best friend called "headache" paid me visits every single day. How thoughtful and faithful. I've been taking panadols almost every other day. I finished like 1 strip in 1 week. What's wrong...?!?! Hopefully, it will go away now that the studying, late nights and exam streak is over. So, my theory to this is: "studies causes deterioration of health and state of mentality"

Situation: Not only has exams given me headaches, it caused me to GAIN WEIGHT!!
Explanation: Studying uses up brain juice and burns brains. Thus, it would lead to the deficiency of energy to stimulate the brain to store up more information and to make logic out of things studied. This in turn causes human/subject/victim to consume food of larger portions and at more frequent intervals.
Conclusion: Studies are like parasites. They get the best out of you and you as the "host" suffer damages.
Treatment: Diet plan and exercise

After exam....
I had a vision in my mind that I would be resting at home, watching a movie on my laptop maybe and not moving at all. Instead, I was out shopping with family for bro's blazer. Amazingly, I barely felt tired although I hardly slept last night and the night before. And now, I can spend time blogging and transfering movies and dramas. Nice right? Haha.... But I'm feeling the after-effect now. Serious case of tiredness. I was so tired yesterday while studying that I couldn't open my eyes like normal. It was as though I cried the whole night, went to sleep and woke up with swollen eyes kind of can not open. Application of Eyemore did not work either. On top of that, I still don't feel like sleeping now although I'm tired! Hahahaha.....

Hmm.... Life's a little boring now. It always revolves around the same things. And so, I'm planning to fully utilize my 2 weeks of break. Since I just got to know yesterday that I won't have to go for meetings and get too busy with my work, I have more time to do other things other than work of course. Time to be random and spontaneous... Find things, go places, experience things to fill time =)

Tomorrow will be my 2nd last paper, which is Microbiology. Last paper would be on Saturday, Endocrinology. Seriously speaking, I've been studying until I feel like banging my head on the wall, jump out of building, crying....etc.

我真的读都有哭也有死。
Meaning: I really study until I wanna cry and also wanna die.

Yeah...I'm trying to learn up my Mandarin/Chinese (I read in Cantonese also, not only Mandarin..hehe)

Anyways, in a way, I'm glad that finals is coming to an end. BUT.... I'm absolutely horrified about tomorrow. How do I put in 9 chapters of information into my head in 1 day?? Near impossible.... Tomorrow will be the no sleep day. The first no sleep day that I will have during finals throughout my Uni period...till now that is.

Note: I might make headlines by getting into a car accident due to insufficient sleep.

Actually, truthfully, study week wasn't fruitful for me. I got addicted to watching 家好月圆 (Moonlight Resonance). IF you have the time, please watch it. Teaches us young minds the meaning of family ties, bonds and relationship. Till the time when exams started, I'm still caught up in following the episodes. Mom's fault...got me addicted to it. Terrible... =p

Since I'm blogging to "release" my stress, I wanna say that TNB subcontractors are IDIOTS!! Middle of the night fix street light until scratch my car. A nice deep scratch. Really wanna sue them... damage my car, ruin my mood to study, might lead to me failing, destroy my future. See how bad it can be??!! Okay... I'm exaggerating. But my poor car... sigh....

I kind of look forward to holidays now. KIND OF. I've got SRC work to catch up on, my own work to do, get ready for industrial training, holiday. You sort it out on your own which ones I look forward to and which ones I don't. I've only got 2 weeks to settle them all. I initially thought I had 3 weeks. Apparently not. It'll be another week of cramming in activities and work to do. Pfft!! Yeah...this is MY HOLIDAY.

And so, this little lady has to get back to her studying, brain burning activities again.
Adrenaline pump up, have to Gambate, perlu terus berusaha dan belajar, 又有加油了....err, don't know how to say in Tamil.

The exam week streak continues. Actually its only been 3 days after my 1st paper. I'm still in no mood for finals.... =( Definitely not a good sign....possibility of failing is superbly high now.

Despite all my rantings, I did manage to finish up 3 chapters of Clinical Biochemistry. I'm seriously dense now but I hope it remains there till Saturday where I will just vomit out whatever information I'm keeping. (FYI: not literally vomitting out) Those who read as much as I do, you'll get what I mean.

Although I was concentrating and studying the whole day today, my thoughts are still flying off somewhere else. I keep pausing and trying to get back on track...FOCUS!! But they still wander off somehow after a period of time. Guilt fills me....trust me. Trying my best and yet what I'm doing is not my best and I know it. Level of disappointment is rising again....

I'm actually missing that one particular moment and time, which is not suppose to happen.
Can't wait till finals are over and get busy with SRC work once again and industrial training. Need to get my mind off things. Yeah....if you've noticed or known me for quite a while, you'll notice that I like to be a workaholic when I have things on my mind. Just a bad habit... a very bad and unhealthy habit.

Who has a way of brain washing me into studying??

A new Samsung P2, full touch screen mp4 player that plays music and videos of course. You can view photos in them also. And... I can make calls through this little gadget of mine by connecting it to my phone through bluetooth. Hehe!! Probably has more functions, I just haven't found out yet. Well, its finals period and studies first. So it's still in the case, untouched and brand new still, awaiting me to keep it company when I'm done with finals. Hahaha!!!

Yes...you can see how sleek and shiny it is that you can see the reflection of my phone. Hehe! (it's not on by the way if you're wondering) And so...this is my other baby (apart from my keyboard). Have to get PROTECTION for my baby soon.

Okay...back to studying already. But first.....sleep. We'll talk study tomorrow =p

This is the middle of the study week. Study/revision progress is....still a blunder. But nevertheless, still making the effort and going the extra mile...sort of.

I actually wanted to moan here about how sad and how pityful I am doing my revision. Then, I changed my mind =P

Although I've got things to moan about, but I've decided to spare my blog from them...for the moment. So yeah...this was just another meaningless post to waste your time =)