heaven knows

After yesterday, I have yet to fail any of my tests so far. Still got 1 more result pending and I'll know it this friday. I'm get gonna angina soon. But so far so good.... *keeps fingers crossed*

Yesterday has got to be one of the stupidest day of my this semester. I got a parking summon thanks to the constant no parking situation in TBR...usual. So yeah, I took the liberty to go and pay for the summon in DBKL Setapak. Trust me, that is the most ridiculous place to go to.

First of all, the place itself is darn secluded. Then, there's no signage at all in all the buildings. It's as though they're expecting humans to have built-in radar as to where to go to. After asking a few people there, me and Aggie finally got to the Rayuan place to get the so called "discount" for the summon. That place, is out in the open with just a measely shade over our heads and lack of chairs. And it was blazing hot in the afternoon. Then we had to wait for quite a while till it was our turn to go in and justify ourselves why we got the summon. That done, and we got the "discount" instantly. Next, we went on place hunt no.2. We had to find where to pay the damn summon. So we got right to asking one of the officers there and he was kind enough to bring us to the place. Along the way, he created some conversation with us...

Officer: So mengapa dapat saman?
Me: Oh, saya park kat garisan kuning. Takde parking la. Kawasan Uni banyak kereta.
Officer: Dapat discount tak?
Me: Dapat.
Officer: Discount sampai berapa?
Me: Err...sekarang bayar RM30.
Officer: So untung berapa?? *smiling*
Me: Untung?! Masih rugi la...kena bayar!!
Officer: Haha. Tak apa la. Kesilapan kecil.

Swt. Think I small kid?? Want to bluff me? How in the world can I untung?? Confirm maths fail la this fella.

Besides that, the summon was written by a dumb nut officer. First of all, he wrote my car type as Unser. But I'm guessing he managed to see the big Avanza word on the sticker on my car. Secondly, he wrote that I parked in "Jalan Malinju, Taman Bungu Raya". It's a non-existent place!!! I tried to argue this point with the officer that's in-charge of the rayuan but failed. These dudes need some E-Edu-Education!!!

All in all, DBKL is outdated although they're the main city. Goodness....get an upgrade man. Learn from DBPJ... fast, comfortable and efficient (probably only for the summons payment and utility bills payment)

In approximately 6 hours and 40 minutes time, I will be having my Genetics Test 2.

Yes...and I can still blog. Amazing right?
Note: I've only slept for like 2 hours in the afternoon and I'm awake till now. Extra amazing!!

Currently resting my brains before they are totally fried and I become blank in a few hours time. Not sure yet whether I will require sleep, but what the heck right?

The most unfortunate thing happened right after I woke up from my "evening nap". NO WATER!!!! Serious stupidness of the Jabatan Bekalan Air (JBA) to just cut off the water supply for my neighbourhood just like that. No informing beforehand what-so-ever. And there they're claiming that they've already posted in the newspaper for 2 days. All plain nonsense!! It's not even in there after my mom checked over and over again.
THEY ARE A TOTAL WASTE OF TAX PAYERS' MONEY!!! FIRE THEM!!!!
Crap man. With the rainy weather, it makes me feel sticky and I can't bathe!! Damn it!! Argh...~!!!!

Lucky I didn't sweat at all today since I've been keeping myself in cool conditions almost the whole day. Plus, I have significantly sensitive cold antibodies which slows down my reception to hot environments. So Yay~

genetics... GENETICS... GENETICS... GENETICS!!!
All the aneuploidy, allopolyploidy, amphidiploid, Drosophila, Klinefelter, Down Syndrome, Burkitt's syndrome...etc. Brain overload. I need a new brain. Or better yet, an ADDITIONAL brain to complement and assist my existing brain.

And so...I think I've lost it.

Why??

In genetics class today, we were learning about evolution, natural selection and all those stuff. Then came this case of hybridization.

Question: What do you call a hybrid of a horse and a donkey??
My answer: horse + donkey = HONKEY!!!
ACTUAL answer: MULE.... swt~!
*this is solely based on internal jokes. it did not involve the class or else I wouldn't be that stupid to come up with such an "intelligent" answer*

After that several hours and little sleep, I'm finally sober and have intact senses again.
So now I'll sing....

I will survive, I will survive
Oh as long as I know how to love I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive, I will survive...

Oh...now I feel tired. But I need to study!!! So it's time to look at the midnight oil and say, "burn, baby, burn!!"

Ok...insanity caught up again. Back to burning.

Soon....
No more house, no more Subang Jaya...
No more joyful barking of my dogs...
No more fatboy sleeping in my room...
No more....life....

I don't feel like sleeping tonight.

I've been doing nothing the whole day!!! OMG~!! This is so not good. I've only done some housework. Oh swt...now to make up for it by sleeping less. *sobs sobs*

I sort of ffk-ed for the seminar thingy in Sunway today...and dragged Aggie and Edna with me (Yes I admit!!!...not being proud about it). No point giving my reason here cause it sounds just irrational.

Anyhows, half of my day went to fiddling with my laptop for no apparent reason. While waiting for my Heroes Season 3 downloads on my desktop, I suddenly had the urge to play with this Speech Recognition thing in my laptop. Turns out to be quite fascinating...for a simple and damaged mind like mine. Yes, it was FASCINATING. Talking to the computer like it's a dog, giving instructions and expect it to read your mind, what you want and obey. Pretty stupid but technology hasn't quite perfected this part of the computer yet. At least not for mine. After a series of mistakes that came out after me giving ORDERS, I finally gave up trying so PATHETICLY hard to get it right.

Then, I found the next thing to keep me away from all my piling work... New season of America's Next Top Model. Pfft~!!!
Note: I do not aspire to be a model for God knows and everyone knows that I'm incapable of that other than being tall. I just like watching the drama that goes on every season.
So there goes another few hours. And finally, now I'm trying to do my report with distractions still. It's called the mind now.

I seriously think something is wrong with my brain already. I can barely process anything other than books and all the dumb facts. Which leads to either my lack of talking or the stupid and mindless things that just blurt out of my mouth without control. Things are getting pretty crazy now. And I think sleep is not really helping as well. What else can I do??? -no idea-

"It tears me up,
I try to hold on but it hurts too much,
I try to forgive but it's not enough,
To make it all okay..."
*especially for some special people...yes, just like it says *

Urgh~ These past few days has had its effects on me. First of all, one of the days really made me see that all my studying so hard is not worth anything. Why?? You wanna know the good reason WHY?! Cause some people just conveniently copy for the tests and get high marks plus bragging rights. So why am I studying my mind, health, and heart out for those tests?

That's cause I still have my own integrity, dignity and conscience to sustain!! And God knows those aren't the things that will give me my CGPA at the end of the day!!! Talk about being ETHICAL.

So I guess society nowadays just don't give two cents about any of those anymore. Everyone's conscience is so darn THIN. They're so easily broken.
Yes, everyone else's conscience are made from thin glass and mine's made from some solid die hard, bullet proof fibre glass. *pfft~!!*

*faints*

Now back to finishing my report which could have been done in 1hours time without any delays and distraction.

Have you ever feel so sad and depressed about your studies that you just want to CRY?!

I feel every bit of it. All the pressure created by the subjects and the timetable and etc...and also my own to push up my grades.

I said before this that I will not give myself a reason to fail. But now...UTAR is giving ME a reason to fail instead. What the ****!!!!! What kind of a sick exam timetable is that to put 3 core subjects together back to back?! I thought our intention to go into university was to learn something and use it for the bettermen of the future and society?? We're all about to become sick nuts by the time we get out of that mental place called a UNIVERSITY. Instead of giving a better future, we're damaging our own by self-inflicting brain damages. Like I said before.... brain cells a.k.a neurons can't be regenerated!!!

ARGH....ARGH....ARGH....!!!!!!

I don't care... I'm gonna vent out my every frustration here NOW!!!
I freaking hate the damn exam timetable!!!
I hate that I have to skip my classes for SRC work previously!!!
I totally, extremely hate that I'm blur in some of my subjects now because I couldn't pay attention last time!!!
I hate that I'm always tired and I can't stay awake to study!!!
I hate that I look like a damn blonde when lecturers ask me questions and I can't answer!!!

ARGH....ARGH....ARGH....!!!!!!

I.... really.... wanna.... cry........

managed to take a pic with Dato' Ong Ka Chuan =P

kok hau

in the mace bearer's robe

A whole lot of people asked me whether I could carry the mace through. Sigh.... Although I look weak, I think I'm still able to carry and "tahan" all the way down the hall and up on stage. And, and, and.... Someone missed out the most important detail when I was asked to carry the mace. The mace head is a freaking 20kg!!!! OMG~!!!! God knows how I pulled through.

My arms are unbalanced now. Right arm bigger than the left arm. Swt.... Need to do some workout to balance them out now. Yeesh~...

And special thanks to Dr Gideon for posting up a public congratulation to me for carrying the mace through convo. Haha...!!!

kah yee and mua

me and grace

me and ms ong

klck, kah yee and me (missing 1 more kaki)

kah yee, hon tong and me

tadaa~ this is what make-up and hair-do can do to you

*p.s. forgive all my stiff smiles. it happens when you're so tired that your facial muscles give way and doesn't co-operate.

Sort of 2 more days to go till the big day...

I hope that I'm able to sigh out of relief at the end of that day. Really hoping everything will go well and it will turn out good just like how we planned it to be. And when the lights dim, the show starts....

Final preparations all in place. Months and months of effort all shown in 1 night. We'll get to see the outcome soon enough.

As predicted... this week is "superman" mode for me. So much to juggle and to fit into 1 week. Now I keep wondering why we have 24 hours and not 40 hours or more in a day. It would be good to have more than 24 hours in a day. But then again...it wouldn't be sufficient by then. Darn... I totally suit the saying that humans are never satisfied with what they have. Sigh...

I'm still rather surprised as to how I managed to keep up with studies and everything all at the same time. Confirm move into "professional multitasker" mode. The level of craziness is just speechless.

Thanks to all the reports, test and meetings, sleep is coming to an extinction soon. A whole week of "not enough sleeps" adds up together and causes light-headedness and slight insanity. Its major symptom would be the ultimate blur and stone face of the host.

Once next monday is over, I can finally put my head to concentrate on 1 major thing...obviously on top of other stuffs. Now, my head is preoccupied with too many things which I'm going to label them as "junk" soon.

I don't know if I have the right to auction off my position... Hmm....

If you think you can do what I do and be in Biomed at the same time, please don't hesitate to tell me. Since some people do think that what I do is very easy and all that. As though my whole life is nothing but SRC and studies are just for show. I will highly consider auctioning off my post to you....the next term. Hehe... By all means... Take it the next semester. Yeah, I have all the time in the world... ~*pfft*